Switch Shoes and See How it Fits

May 2010 Elections

2010-05-11T23:00:00.003+08:00

I am proud to be a Filipino and to vote and express my opinion through it.

It has been such a long time since I have felt such for my country. I love it, I owe it so much and I will fight for it, but not with the intensity I have for it right now.

It may not be much, but I sure have regained more than just a glimmer of hope.

Change is imminent. For the good, I pray all the time.

Kudos to Smartmatic. They have made a name for themselves. And to the COMELEC. Your balls are back. Nice to see the commissioners make a stand. Whether it was mocked or lauded.

On Melancholy Hill

2010-04-12T15:47:00.001+08:00

That title is cool. It is from a song by the Gorillaz. It sounds tragic and cute. It has a sentimental vibe that I cannot explain. It is like when you look at the sunset, letting something go, or accepting a tragedy, yet you cannot help but smile, and walk away from the greatest view you have ever seen in your life.

Posting

2010-01-19T19:17:00.001+08:00

Just to say I've posted.

2009 was indeed a busy, busy year.

I find it surprising that not a post was made for that year.

Or maybe I overlooked such post. Either way,

HELLO 2010. This is my year. For better or worse.

let's play more videogames shall we?

2008-12-08T19:16:00.002+08:00

Source: INQUIRER.NET, Philippine News for Filipinos

SAYS PEW SURVEY
Videogames not just for kids

Agence France-Presse
First Posted 16:09:00 12/08/2008

WASHINGTON -- Videogames are not just for kids.

A new survey out on Sunday found that more than half of American adults aged 18 and older play videogames, and that about one out of five play every day or almost every day.

According to the survey by the Pew Internet & American Life Project of the Washington-based Pew Research Center, 53 percent of American adults aged 18 or older play videogames although the number decreases significantly with age.

Eighty-one percent of Americans aged between 18 and 29 play videogames, 60 percent of those aged between 30 and 49, 40 percent of those aged between 50 and 64 and just 23 percent of those aged 65 and older, the survey found.

Twenty-one percent of those surveyed said they play videogames every day or almost every day.

The survey found that while a substantial number of adults play videogames many more teenagers are gamers. A total of 97 percent of the teenagers surveyed said they play videogames.

Men are more likely than women to play videogames, according to Pew, by 55 percent to 50 percent respectively.

Education level is a predictor of videogame play with 57 percent of those with at least some college education playing games, 51 percent of high school graduates and 40 percent of those with less than a high school education.

For the study, videogame playing was defined as game-playing online, on a desktop or laptop computer, a game console, a cellphone, a handheld organizer or a portable gaming device.

Computers are the most popular equipment for adults who play videogames with 38 percent saying they play games on desktop or laptop computers.

Twenty-eight percent play on game consoles like the Xbox, PlayStation or the Wii, 18 percent on cellphones or handheld organizers and 13 percent on portable gaming devices.

Teenagers were much more likely to play videogames on game consoles with 89 percent saying they used consoles to play games.

Internet users were significantly more likely to play games than those who are not online, the study found, with 64 percent of Web users playing games compared with just 20 percent of non-Internet users.

Parents are more likely to play videogames than non-parents with 66 percent of parents or guardians of children 17 years old or younger playing games compared with 47 percents of adults who are not parents.

Teenagers are much more likely than adults to play games online with 76 percent of all teens saying they play games online compared with just 23 percent of all adults.

Pew said the data on teenagers was based on a survey of 1,102 teens conducted between November 2007 and February 2008.

The data on adults was based on surveys of between 1,063 and 2,054 adults between October 2007 and December 2007. The various surveys had margins of error of between plus or minus two percent and plus or minus three percent.

Lap-top

2008-12-01T18:19:00.002+08:00

So, instead of studying (well, my room is being cleaned as of the moment), I am here outside, using the wifi of the neighbor and writing this entry. I love it when I can access other wifi, since I think that the neighbor is a nice person allowing access to their internet. However, there was this one time when they "tweaked" the wifi, making it a network-type of wifi. This is usually the ones that articles in websites that will tell you to avoid, since they will be provided with access to your own computer and they can hack it and slash it. Too bad for them, I know about it, so they were not-so-successful in attempting to probably detect who on earth is eating off a bit of their bandwidth. HA-HA.

The laptop I am using, while powerful and I could not really ask for more, since it can play the games I want to play, can do whatever I need to for school, and I can even pop in a dvd or two to watch great shows, is big and heavy, and I usually let it settle on the table in my room. I found it a drag to actually bring the laptop only, concerned about its lifespan, and the heat that I get from it. As of last night though, that changed. For some reason, my laptop generates less heat when it runs on its battery (energy saving strategy I reckon), and the easeness of typing when it is literally on my lap. I love typing on laptops. I enjoy its tactile response to my fingers, the clacking sounds it makes. It is way better than in an ordinary keyboard. I hope I do not wreck it though since I love hitting those keys with force to hear the clacking sounds.

Okay, I am a newbie when it comes to laptops. I am more of a PC kind of guy. The portable semi-PC thing I would only like to bring is a celfone. This laptop's too big for everyday bringing. This is an entertainment laptop indeed, even if I were a writer, I would purchase a smaller laptop, probably would have two laptops. but that's just me. And since I am not a writer per se, it is not my problem. The only drawback from this is that there is a high chance of me dropping the said device. That is not good... by all means.

Well, taking care of your device is a great start for longevity. I find it odd that I am still old school when it comes to shutting down my laptop or my PC. Nowadays, people just do not care and leave them on, and that is usually the problem that recent operating systems have now addressed. In the past, the system would crash if it were turned on for days. Now, chips and systems are designed for you NOT to turn them off. Weird. I figured though that by shutting them down and turning them on again, it would stretch the lifespan of your device, since there is no energy nor heat created, and the parts on which wear and tear is apparent will not suffer as much. Sleep, standby or whatnot is not the same as shutting the actual thing down.

Alright, I think I have written too much geek stuff. So back to my normal programming.

What is Your Final Grade?

2008-11-29T00:59:00.002+08:00

What is it, your grade in school, or in life?

There millions of ways to measure, or grade rather, a person. Right now I am focusing on two: grades on paper, and grades on experience.

This is the first time I will try to expound on this thought. Pardon me if it is messy. The premise is simple: grades on paper do not mean sh*t.

Yes, for those academic overachievers, or with at least overachieving parents, you will go like, "Man, you're nuts and you do not know what you are talking about." True, but I can say it right now, straight to your face, that I am still better than you because I take in what life throws my way, which is usually crap, and try to turn it to gold, can you do that? Can your academic bullsh*t help you do that? No.

I remember my mom, when my uncle and I kept on teasing her on the point she would turn red with anger, asking us if we were taught manners in school... as in like a class. Of course not. Everything is focused in academics. Accepted is a good anti-thesis to what is usually being fed to us. In essence, the most important lessons are not in the classroom. PERIOD. Argue all day about it. There is no point, I assure you.

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and I am in no way saying that you should not stop studying either. Education is very, and I repeat, very important. My only prayer is that you control your life, and everything in it is because of your choices. Your choices.

From my experience, I do what I have to do, and whatever I want to do for the sake of knowledge. I study for school, but I try my best to relax, do other things, even if it means that I will get a lower grade than what I think I should get. I help a friend in need, even if it means almost failing an exam. I still get that adrenaline rush with recitations, I still stress out over a professor that seems to be disliking us. I am a normal student. I just do not sweat over it. It is cold in the classroom, so maybe that is the reason.

Bottom line is: as long as you know that there is more to it than what you are now, that there are greater things beyond your comprehension, then all is good. It keeps you humble and relaxed. There are better people than I am in doing this, but most people are not as lucky as I am in dealing with these matters either.

My apologies if it seems imposing. I just do not like the same being done to me, and this is a simple outlet that can remind me later on in my journey.

P.S. Call it what you want, but there are reasons why I stick to my principles and is never swayed. They are time-tested, and I welcome a situation in which it proves a principle wrong. Never happens. If you have yours, stick to it as well.

P.P.S. If you feel irritated, at least for a bit, then I have made my point. I do not like the feeling. I do not do this, I just need to show how it feels.

The feeling

2008-11-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

Why am I having this sinking feeling?

The feeling that I have gained so much, yet lost even more.

My own benefit at other people's expense.

It just feels weird. I know I did not do anything wrong.

As much as I traverse this world alone (or most of the time), I never would want to travel nor experience everything alone... if that makes sense.

I want to savor things with people I cherish and value... not be on the top and laugh at everyone.

That was funny... as if I am really on top. Hahaha!

Sembreak over. Classes resume...

That's why!!! :"P

Final (ly)

2008-10-17T16:17:00.001+08:00

The sem is over.

Hopefully that is the only thing that is over... and all the bad breaks and streaks...

Other than that, the hell with it. ;")

Finals Trials Vials!

2008-10-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

Favorite Song/s: Ang puso, ialay sa laban, kapalit ay tagumpay!!! & MAKE 'EM SAY UUUUHHHHH

Favorite Food/s: Pepper Lunch/ Sumo Sam food.

Favorite Place: Someone else's place. Hehehe

Favorite Subject: Succession. I hope I pass!

Favorite Pastime: Geekmode.

Favorite Color: Black

Favorite Band: METALLICA!!!

Favorite Driver: Si Nica. Or maybe myself na nga lang ulit.

Favorite Moment: Hmm... well... :"P

Favorite Movie: Back to Bourne Ultimatum

Favorite Joke: EDIT: An apple a day, keeps the doctor away. But if the doctor's cute, forget about the fruit! (from Joanne Lu's status msg as of this edit) Hahaha!

Favorite TV Show/s: Gossip Girl season 2, House season 5. :"D

FIGHT. And I do not mean in the UAAP sense.

2008-09-27T23:27:00.002+08:00

Puso by Sponge Cola

Hinihingal ka lang
May oras pang natitira
Kahit parang ang layo pa
Habol
Kung harangan ka man

Sumalakay man mga bantay
Lahat kami Maghihintay
Habol, habol

Dehado kung dehado
Para sa’n pang mga galos mo
Kung titiklop ka lang
Titiklop ka lang
Matalo kung matalo
Huwag ka sanang magkakamaling
Sumuko na lang

Ang puso
Iaalay
Sa laban
Kapalit ay tagumpay

Maagawan ka man
Lalung huwag kang papipiga
Kumpiyansa lang bawat bangga

Kumaripas ka na
Humanda ka na sa paglipad
Pakpak nati’y ilalantad

Dehado kung dehado
Para sa’n pang mga galos mo
Kung titiklop ka lang
Titiklop ka lang
Matalo kung matalo
Huwag ka sanang magkakamaling
Sumuko na lang

Ang puso
Iaalay
Sa laban
Kapalit ay tagumpay

Typhoon.

2008-09-22T03:21:00.000+08:00

When it rains...

It just floods like f*ck.

No Place Like Home

2008-09-10T21:44:00.002+08:00

Strife.

Pain.

Confusion.

Disappointment.

Abandonment.

Alone.

Frustration.

Heartbreak.

Memories.

Uncertainty.

Lost.

Flabbergasted.

Missed you guys.

No place like home.

Google Chrome

2008-09-04T02:09:00.000+08:00

As mentioned, I was about to write a review on Firefox and IE...

Now that Google Chrome has arrived, it spices up the competition.

Now that I am using it, I shall say what most people have been saying...

"It's fast... it's )(%*&)(@& fast."

In a Coffee Shop

2008-08-30T00:53:00.002+08:00

I am here in a coffee shop right now. There is class tomorrow, but I feel like drinking coffee since there was not any at home. Also, for some weird reason, my internet actually is acting up on me. So in this shop, there is wi-fi, which is always good. It is free too.

Now, I was supposed to write a geeky review regarding browsers, namely Firefox and Internet Explorer. However, I was negligent in not saving my write-up about it. I am not exactly that bummed about losing it, since I think I can cook one up that is better.

I am fortunate to pass a major subject last semester. Well, I knew I passed that one, I just was not certain as to what my grade was going to be. It was a good grade, so I am not displeased. Although with my current efforts, I think I can perform better. Naturally. We shall see if there is indeed any effect to my rejuvenated study habits.

For a back subject, it does not seem that way. I am too lazy to read up on anything for a number of reasons: the subject is boring, the provisions are even more boring after the midterm examinations, and oh, did I say it is boring? No it is not the teacher. It is simply the law itself that makes you yawn and want to daydream about your current blockmates in that subject.

So here I am. I miss my best friend and the tambays. I shall do that again very soon. I just want to bum around and talk about anything and everything. I don't want to party, I don't want to drink (well I do, not now though), I just want to chill out. Sit on a couch, smoking, discussing life. Probably even read a bit on whatever that is I feel like reading. Anything that makes me feel that as much as it seems to the rest of the world that it is a waste of time, it is one of the best moments in my lifetime.

I probably should write something more, but then I cannot think of anything as of now. I just want that coffee, for the internet at home to continue running so I can check the things I usually check, and hope that I survive this third year.

Here We Go Again

2008-08-22T02:02:00.002+08:00

Again. %(@)*&%)(

Oh well.

Go for another Game-winning finals exam...

Like I've done a million times.

Hopefully it's just for a subject.

No Classes? No Work?

2008-08-21T01:32:00.003+08:00

Listening and enjoying to the tunes of Miley Cyrus' music is just not right.

It's nice to pretend-study. You are on the false pretense that you are studying, but then you are actually concentrated on the things that are not related to it, all in one sitting. You feel productive, but you also feel as if you didn't stress yourself out the entire day!

The result: You still suck at tomorrow's class, but hey, you did have fun, eh? :"P

Trying to confuse me, boy?

M. Still here. Still missing that.

Bambee's such a great laptop.

Major problem: Gasoline prices.

Best moment: anything with N as of late. Problems get lost.

Back to reading things I do not understand.

Clear the Mechanism

2008-08-12T00:11:00.004+08:00

Clear the mechanism. I love this line. This particular line came from the movie, "For the Love of the Game". Cheesy I know, but hey, the line was there, and I consider it a good line.

In the movie, this is his way of getting "in the zone". He focuses and he becomes the athlete. No other crap in the world. It is him, his baseball, and his arm. Goal: To strike out them damn batters.

So far it has been working for me, although I do not say that. Like in the movie, when his arm ached so much his concentration faltered, and the line did not work any more. So he had to win the game with help from his teammates. In midterm examinations, I don't know how that can be done. Group study discussions? Hahaha! Right.

The funny thing: While I sweat blood and my brain is falling out of my nostrils, there is this lingering feeling that I botched every exam that I have been a part of. So much for your so-called "reward" for your review and labor... LABOR. Hahaha oh it is an exam, and that exam was whack. Haha!

The first Monday was harrowing. 3pm to 7pm of a four-unit exam and a three-unit exam goodness! No breaks. They don't care whether you plop on the floor due to a seizure. As long as you follow their rules, you are given the "privilege" of taking the exams. You might be misled, I am not complaining. I like these types of challenges. I LOVE THEM and look forward to such a challenge. This is why I am in school. Torture is great. If there's no torture, I cannot say wholeheartedly that the tuition my parents pay for is worth it. I read the originals, I stay away from reviewers and past exams most of the time (although this part I am already done with. I am done charging blindly and proving that it can be done. As if it is in basketball, my rookie season is over, and now it is time to play smart), and claw my way through the book pages, and those thick cases.

Play it smart. I think I have proven to myself that I can do it MY WAY. MY WAY being the "oh-so-stupid-bragging-your-ass-off-to-those-poor-other-students-that-they-studied-and-stayed-up-all-night-while-i-ate-and-played-sports-and-slept-for-so-long-type-of-bragging". Okay I did not really brag that to them, but I did keep on bragging that to my little useless brain. The time for stupidity is now over... actually it should have been over the instant you graduated from college. However, the reason why I am not exactly in a hurry to be THAT serious has paid dividends. It has paid off so much that it is actually scary to veer off from the practice.

So, myself, being a "late bloomer", has officially attempted to veer off from being the stupid self I was during the past years in law. Beginning tomorrow, after 5pm, the attempt is completed, the results of which, is yet to be seen.

Although I feel that such a difference does not exist, I think there is. I refuse to accept that all I have is great potential, and no ability to refine it. Either way, it's still torture.

I'm being sustained to be tortured. Great! As I am taking everything day-by-day, I want to see myself on top of that hill, screaming that I did it my way. I think it is worth it.

Why did that take me two years in law to find that out. Yes, time indeed can figure things out for you without even you yourself knowing it. Of course, old habits still feel as gratifying as your efforts. The most recent exam I took was the exam that I least studied for (but the concentration was higher than the other exam I took and look how that went), yet I felt great about it, since lady luck was on my side. That's that bullshit. Lady Luck sides with you when you actually study for an exam. The hell's up with that? That's not luck, that's something else! Haha!

After the 4-hour exam marathon, I think my brain got bigger. Maybe it even formed a brain of its own... huh?

I just treat eveything as cakewalk... but it never is.

And I love it.

Escalator

2008-08-06T03:09:00.002+08:00

Yes, sometimes, when you go up to another floor, you hope for something great to happen.

Then you realize that this something great that you want to happen, is on the opposite side, on its way whence you came.

Different floors, same doors.

Midterms Againsters!

2008-08-03T18:26:00.000+08:00

Favorite Song: Ma Sheba Ba- Hadag Nachash

Favorite Food: Pepper Rice of Pepper Lunch... when I have money!

Favorite Place: My so-called study place at home

Favorite Subject: Succession and Consti... because I have to!

Favorite Pastime: Figuring out how to get everything for free

Favorite Color: Blue

Favorite Band: Coldplay... lupit eh

Favorite Driver: Myself. I have been the driver as of late in anything

Favorite Moment: Ooh. Several. I do not know where to start.

Favorite Movie: You Don't Mess With the ZOHAN!!! Wahahaha!

Favorite Joke: SCWAH!!! Wahahaha!

Favorite TV Show: Well... How I Met Your Mother for now I suppose.

Expulsion

2008-07-23T00:45:00.003+08:00

I feel talkative blog-wise.

For one, I agree with my best friend. Blogs are for emo people. Not that there is something wrong with them or anything, but there is not point in writing if you are simply to whine about it and want the entire world to know about it. Everyone's got problems, so you do not have to show that you have problems too. It can be argued that people do not have to look at their blogs if they do not want to. It is their prerogative. Again, I agree with that.

That is the main reason why I do not write in Multiply anymore, or in any other site for that matter, since it is posted that you have posted something. This place is somewhat peaceful. People visit this actually give a damn, or just want to burden themselves with other people's problems. As mentioned, it IS their prerogative. Besides, I have been amused with the concept of silence. You see, I am a talkative person. I may have a devil-may-care attitude (did I get that right?), and I am honest... maybe too honest. Such honesty, however, is not the main point of this entry.

The simple ratio for this entry is simple: I have time, and while I do not want to speak up as of late, whispering is a viable option. Only those who are very particular with detail will actually come across this entry (oh please do not be a stalker).

See, I have met someone that made me realize so much. The most important being that what I am searching for is real. Like any other tragedy however, once a dream had materialized, there is no other way but down. I would say that this part happened too soon, but hey, what do I know.

I always say to myself that everything happens for a reason. With this mindset, everything seems to make sense. It does not allow optimism to simply fade away, to be suddenly replaced with pessimism. While the reasons for this particular scenario is unknown to me, it still has an effect that prompts me to act.

There are differences among the three: Staying behind, Moving on, and Waiting.

In the past, waiting and staying behind were synonymous to each other. It has come to my attention that it is not. Waiting can be something else. It can be a clause in your moving on, or in your staying behind. Waiting does not necessarily mean that you are not moving on; it simply means that you are living, and you try to understand things as they go along. It can be with school, relationships, objects, etc. You wait, because you do not want to rush a big decision. That decision can evolve, so are your requirements or demands. Everything evens out in the end anyway.

Time waits for no one. Mortals should always take note of that.

At this point, I think I have wasted too much time.

The Dark Knight

2008-07-21T02:46:00.000+08:00

That movie...

Speechless.

Oh Geez

2008-07-13T14:29:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I don't know what to think anymore. Oh well. Such is life.

In a happy way of course. Just because it sounds sad, does not mean it necessarily is.

Yun Yon Eh.

2008-07-08T04:19:00.002+08:00

"23"

by Jimmy Eat World

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end

The one thing that stays mine...

---

I did not know there was another song that could capture a moment so perfectly.

Expresso

2008-07-08T00:35:00.002+08:00

A dark cloud.

It always happens. When happy, you brain seems to stop working. It overwhelms you.

Motivated for chessy reasons, driven to silly ambitions, focused on that other person, or thing, or fancy. Whatever it is, as long as it makes you happy.

No reason to want more that is REAL.

Well, I guess it is a matter of balance.

For the most part, we are creatures of habit. The lack of a so-called habit is a habit in itself.

All I can think of right now is... ENJOY THE FEELING. It is a feeling that will not last.

Not to be pessimistic, it is just a fact of life.

And the fact that you know that such a moment will not last... makes it allll the sweeter.

It makes it all worth it.

It is the perfect comfirmation that one is alive.

Yes! Nagfeeling!

2008-06-26T11:21:00.002+08:00

In our everyday struggles
As the Sun parades with the Moon
When one is able to find
The brightest sparkle in raindrops
So great a world they live in,
Inside the heart of an oak

The Start

2008-06-15T18:05:00.002+08:00

This is where the fun begins.

As I type, I am finding ways to rejuvenate my spirit. My resolve intact, I try to weave through the broken paths I have been taking since birth. I am attempting to break away from such ghosts.

In reality, I need change.

A friend told me that his purpose in taking that course is not to make friends, but in the end he found great people, real people that may guide him through the walks of life.

This person, on the other hand, wanted a fresh start. He wanted to meet new people, see new faces, experience new things. The course was secondary.

As time passed by, no one really bonded with this person, and more with that friend.

So now, this person should follow the footsteps of his friend.

It's gametime baby.

The real reason is because this person is taking more subjects that he is supposed to take. So a higher degree of focus is required. Other than that, this person is just rambling.

The Stunner

2008-06-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

First day of school.

Lots of things that need to be done. Nothing that can be solved with being organized and focused.

Days before First Day of School

Yep. That was painful. Lone wolf. Always. Whether I like it or not.

However, Bambee arrived the day before school begins. Bambee's my laptop. So that will keep me focused and busy... I think.

Summer Days

Amazing. It was surreal. I do not know what else to say. There was a spark, magic even? Well, almost. Cannot do anything about it.

Just when I thought everything happens for a reason... They still do anyway. It's just kind of a rip off.

I miss it. Whichever way I put it. One just has to deal with it. And I never back away from something that is worth my while. So if it is pain that I shall receive, so be it.

I'm Picking Up the Message Lord

2008-06-08T18:34:00.002+08:00

Actions speak louder than words.

Cherry Blossom

2008-05-19T01:31:00.002+08:00

Wild. That was what last week felt like. Sorrow, anxiety, pain, loss, whatever-emo-word-you-can-insert-here, are some of the emotions that I have felt during that week. On what should have been a simple summer week to waste your brain cells on, to put your future on hold, became the week that had a moment of truth. The week, which one must ponder on what he has done so far in his life, and what he plans to do, and where such results will bring him.

Yes, last Wednesday was the day that would define a significant number of people's fate in law school, myself included. It turned out that I still have a couple of lives left to waste in that wretched school, maybe I am a masochist, who knows. But for some, that subject provided a temporary road block to whatever dreams they may want to pursue. Tragic... for now.

A very dear friend of mine, someone I came to know simply by smoking on the fourth floor of our school, was one of the casualties. We bonded, we smoked, then smoked some more, then eventually I introduced him to my best friend, then he introduced me to his friends. Okay, that was pretty gay, but bottom line is, we had so much to talk about. I thought he was on the "other side", but then we were teammates, and I would always include him in whatever activities the block had, or my friends had. We shared about how we lived, and how we live now, and what we plan to do. He often shared his desire to prove everyone that he is someone worth fighting for, a man who is driven to make something out of himself, and he thinks that being a lawyer is the best way to do that. Unfortunately, that dream will be delayed for a bit.

All I know was we were both on the verge of getting axed, and I came out alive. Story of my life. I always pull through in those kinds of situations. "Shows character," I would usually say to myself, followed with, "Who's the man?!" On that Wednesday, while I let out a scream, and unleashed fury on my monobloc chair, I was not as content, nor as arrogant as I would like to be with myself. A brother had fallen. He is such a talented writer, singer, much more than I can imagine myself to be, and he is one of those who had to suffer such a loss. I was frustrated. I was devastated. Seriously. I told him last Saturday that I was on the verge of tears. I was not joking around.

Ironically, nothing really ended. Just his stint in this school I study in. That's about it. Everything else, is still an ongoing journey. A journey filled with great friendship and experiences. This friend of mine is one of the reasons why I have been enjoying my stay in law school. There is always something other than law, something that is as deep, even deeper, to discuss and debate about. There is the passion for music, and how we had a blast during the concert earlier this year. That bastard. He left me. Tsk. Okay I was kidding.

I am sure law school's not going to be as fun. But I will sure make everything in school count. Now it has to count. Everyone's been closing in on me, saying the same thing. Including him.

I'll make it count for them.

Woozy

2008-05-07T19:25:00.002+08:00

I just want to type. That's it.

As much as I want my blog to be filled with useless information, I am unable to write something because everything that has been happening as of late are personal in nature. And I am not the type to do that. Problem is... nothing to write.

So... CHEERS!... uhhhhh.

Happy

2008-04-27T15:17:00.002+08:00

Happy. In a profound manner.

As everything evolves, toward the labyrinth of complexities, it is apparent that being happy, comes with a hefty price. To be happy, is to realize that you have done the right thing, and a that a great thing has been sacrificed to attain it. Hence, you have a sense of fulfillment, yet you feel like crap inside.

In a way, that is how I feel. Not to worry. I can take it. I know I am profoundly happy.

And knowing is half the battle... right?

Just Like the Movies

2008-04-22T17:08:00.002+08:00

When everything happens in such a simple and uninteresting manner, yet they have meaning beyond comprehension.

I am really thankful that I have been reminded that such moments still exist.

Everything's just so...

2008-04-03T03:14:00.002+08:00

Ugh.

- Does age really matter? Chemistry? Intellect?

- Do people truly deserve what they have... or it's just a matter of guts?

- Destiny? Or as mentioned, just a matter of guts?

- Is there such a thing as giving it your all?

- Hoping against hope?

This is messed up.

Oh well.

It may seem typical, but you cannot really determine anything if you do not scratch the surface.

Lemurrrrrrr... cough

2008-03-14T01:02:00.002+08:00

I got this from my friend Waps.

I am sick. Not in any mood to be cheerful or to smile. I am unable to drink and celebrate with my friends, go out and not think of a tissue box, drive and feel awake. Most of the time, I am just running on sub-tanks a-la Megaman X type. X-Buster has become X-Busto. Anyway, as he said it, "something to uplift the spirit."

Gone

2008-03-11T03:40:00.002+08:00

I did write a letter. Probably one of the reasons why change never struck me the way it should have. I wrote. What I write, I keep and hold dear. Essentially, I do make promises I can keep. And when I give my word, I keep them.

Somewhere along the blurred lines of the past, it mentioned, "I will wait."

Something I never do, patience is not one of my virtues. Life is too short for that.

I kept my word. Soul shaking, heart aching. Oh, and not in the cheesy way. The pain was more than physical. There is no rehab with this one.

It would seem that the person I wrote to forgot about it. That is alright. Nothing lost, nothing really. I just want that person to know I kept my word. My word is stronger than oak.

And I will still keep my word. But I will allow things to change.

The pain will subside, it will be forgotten. Memories never fade. They become more vivid by the second.

Now the body is able to anticipate the brand new day.

With appreciation.

Sapul.

2008-03-09T12:17:00.001+08:00

And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That I’ve already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes ‘round and everyone lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So who’s gonna watch you die? So who's gonna watch you die...

Video from YouTube, Lyrics

Whirlwind Two Weeks

2008-03-08T01:15:00.002+08:00

Everything is a blur.

There is so much to talk about, so many things to remember.

The thought that is dominating the entire scenario is the thought of me having to study for class. What a silly, stupid, dominating thought. With every opportunity to do things 110%, I have only done 90. Sometimes, you do really have to go with your gut. I did, but only to a certain extent. Consider the Id, Ego Superego Freudian crap that you can muster.

It is a great experience, and it has made me feel twice as better that I have something that keeps me from going all out. I have gained the motivation and courage to do things that I have been meaning to do. It is just funny that I have acquired it from such a peculiar source.

Instead of acquiring through solace and prayer, I have acquired it when I was in peril, against the raging sea. When things actually make you doubt yourself even more, and the life that you lead, it has made things clearer. Instead of serving as a distraction, it has become a symbol of focus. The silence part, where I prayed, was for my conversation with my God, thanking Him, instead of asking for something. I prayed that I can maintain this mindset, so I can survive the ordeals that will be headed my way.

We do not get everything we want, but there are times when it seems that you are overwhelmed by the things you want. In the end, you must make a choice anyway. It is all up to you. All up to choice.

Or all up to fate.

Last Night

2008-02-24T14:28:00.002+08:00

February 23, 2008.

It is among those of the most memorable. Fantastic fantasic.

No words can truly express how everything was. Everything was well, all over the place. And it had to be like that to be one of the most memorable.

Geisha Stardom

2008-02-17T01:42:00.003+08:00

I just watched "Memoirs of a Geisha" in HBO. I was not able to appreciate it the first time I watched it because I was sleepy, in someone else's home and I was focusing on something else as well.

The first time I watched it, I said, "This movie will surely win best cinematography." It did. Hands down. I loved the contrast, the artsy shots, the camera movement. One scene that made me appreciate it all the more is when Chiyo was running after meeting with the Chairman for the first time. I do not know what to call it, I just interpret it as orange wooden Japanese things that seems like a tunnel. Of course the dancing scenes were great. As much as it did not receive that much buzz on its release (naturally, which will be explained later), it is still a good movie to watch. This is not an "Any day, any time" type of movie. You have to have a certain mood for it. It does not require that much focus and concentration like its competitor during that time, Brokeback Mountain. Now that movie, was boring. Okay, not as boring as Pride and Prejudice. But I found it ironic that Brokeback Mountain was usually tagged as an art film, in which I found Pride and Prejudice even doing a better job at it. That is how I saw, and have been seeing it.

Memoirs did not live up to the hype so to speak. It is like the two other movies I have mentioned: boring, and the sappiest. I may be mistaken so feel free to disagree. Anyway, three of the main characters in the plot are Chinese, which I have no problem with but for some it removes the authentic feel. I believe what Watanabe said in the wiki link of Memoirs, that nationality should not be a factor when it comes to talent. These women can pass off as Japanese-looking women to those who are not from Japan, so they have done a great job with that.

However, this entry is not about the movie's weaknesses. It is about the strength, which is the culture (even if not portrayed accurately) and the stunning outfits of such geisha. The fans, the wooden slippers, the powder, the hairclips and of course, the kimono. Glitz and glamour. One of the best scenes in my opinion is when the Baron was undressing Sayuri. Its purpose is to emphasize on the intricacies of the kimono, the geisha's armor. How strings underlie another set of strings, how a kimono is actually hidden in several ones. I would not know the things you call what is under that main kimono, but that scene, the baron's familiarity with undressing a kimono (because of Mameha I suppose), and the power that comes along with it leaves Sayuri helpless. She was a legend-to-be, and it was probably because of that as to why the baron did not touch her in the movie.

Of course, age is just a number. No matter how stunning Zhang Ziyi is, Michelle Yeoh trumps her any day. Since Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. Since Zhang Ziyi was not born yet. She's owned. Or pwned. Whatever. Speaking of Gong Li, amazing is the movie of Curse of the Golden Flower. What a sick movie. I love it!

Here I am again wikipedia-ing all the way. I guess I feel like the latest movie I just mentioned: Beautiful on the outside, rotten inside.

The Rose that Never Sleeps

2008-02-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

As I wake, everything seems the same. They seem fine. The dimly-lit pastel blue room that surrounds me is the same room a thousand mornings ago, while the sheets change from week to week. Sleep once more, wake once more.

In the active part of the day, the usual work is done. Staring blankly on a wall, or reading a good book, or smoking, or drinking coffee. To hang out with friends, or to go to a sports game. These are things to love and cherish, but there are moments that are in our mind that we cannot seem to realize. All remain as fantasies that you replay over and over, wishing that one day, everything will catch you by surprise as everything unravels the way it is planned.

Most of the time, it is not the way it should be. It is usually the way everything needs to be. Perhaps the balance is the imbalance. As much as one thinks that one needs something, and wants it more than anything, someone seems to know better. You do not get exactly what you want, in the long run though, you get something that is better.

I do not want that something better. I want the thing that I want. In an objective view, tons of things are better. But that is not what I want. I want what I want. Want.

It only refers to one.

An evening made me realize, that selfish thoughts will not take you anywhere that will satiate your soul. Being selfless leads you to a world full of pain, but it has quenched the soul's thirst. Things are better this way, and by getting what you want, will destroy something else, rather than yourself. Or it will destroy everything involved, but the brunt of the blow will be geared towards others. It does not matter what I think, or how it feels.

What is more interesting is how I have tried to shed away such bothersome thoughts. I consciously and unconsciously battle it out of my system. It still remains. I suppose that there is something that your mind cannot indeed comprehend. And I am thankful for this thought. The one thought that torments me, makes me actually feel more alive. I look forward to better days, better thoughts in a more conscious way. While the ultimate dream seems impossible to accomplish, I am pretty sure my tormenting thought has misled me to believe that such a dream is the ultimate dream. The steps and stumbles during such duress has provided so much wisdom, than that of a person who always has a silver spoon in his mouth.

While the main path is truly a detour, I cannot push enough to convince myself that it is indeed a detour. I know it is, but it does not register. Everything stays the same. The pain still remains. It has become such an integral part that its removal is worse than it should be.

Everything does not happen for a reason. Everything that happens is reasoned. I have not found a reason for this happening.

Cheers, to that rose that never sleeps. In my heart such thorns have been embraced with loving arms.

Superbowl

2008-02-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

And the New York Giants won. I had a gut feeling they would win, but I was still leaning towards the New England Patriots to win. Why, because if they lose, it would be the lousiest feeling in football history. What is the point of a flawless season up to this point if you are not able to win the big one?

It is similar to what Roger Federer said when he lost at the Australian Open semi-final match against Novak Djokovic, "I've created a monster." He was referring to his almost never losing that people expect him to win, and if he loses, they think that he's already done for. Past his prime. Younger people taking over.

Federer is still the best men's player in tennis, and will still be for the next couple of years. The Patriots, however, will not be as good as Federer is anymore. Not to mention Belichick being a sore loser, but hey, I would be too if you had an 18-0 season and see it go up in smoke at the last 35 seconds of the game. What I would not do is leave the game while there is still gametime left. That was just bad. He has created a monster as well, he should deal with that.

Oh well. Back to studying... or whatever it is I am doing.

I Don't Feel Creative. Argh.

2008-01-31T00:49:00.000+08:00

70%

Calm Before the Storm

2008-01-28T02:45:00.000+08:00

Is a good title before any exam, or any pressure-filled scenarios I could think of.

Besides the awfully addicting ep7 of Gossip Girl, I want to put on record on a quote, which I think hits the spot as well.

There is one quote that is in my heart, "There is not such thing as right or wrong, people only fight for what they believe in." I got that from Rurouni Kenshin.

And now there are two. That and this one:

"Champions take chances, and pressure is a privilege."

Corp awaits.

Midterms Schmidterms!

2008-01-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

Favorite Song: Believe by The Bravery

Favorite Food: Right now craving for Cibo... oh no. If not that, jellyfish ng Good Earth

Favorite Place: Gimme a P! Gimme an E! Gimme a T! Gimme an R! Gimme an O! Gimme an N!

Favorite Subject: Philippine Corporate Law (does not necessarily mean that I will get good grades haha!).

Favorite Pastime: Window Shopping, searching for viable studly lamps.

Favorite Color: Forever black. Maybe Maroon... 5? Haha

Favorite Band: Paramore pa rin. Solid eh

Favorite Driver: Driver... golf driver. I want to play golf... no, I WANT TENNIS!!!

Favorite Moment: When Ana Ivanovic pumps herself up after winning a point (I think it's "Oh yeah!" but I don't think english is her primary language).

Favorite Movie: American Gangster.

Favorite Joke: Sinong best friend ni Soulja Boy? Sobrang corny, but it's the only joke I can remember as of now.

Favorite TV Show: Favorite show...? You know you love me, xoxo!!!

RIP Heath Ledger

2008-01-24T01:12:00.000+08:00

Yup. I liked the guy.

But come on. Whining about his death? That he's now part of the accumulating line of hot actors who have passed away recently, and say that the world sucks?

Think again.

Please. I do hope you know that the world has more pressing problems than little whines that you call daydreams.

Just my 2 cents.

Pasubali Music Video by Sponge Cola

2008-01-20T18:03:00.000+08:00

Directed by Quark Henares

Back to your Normal Programming

2008-01-17T01:44:00.000+08:00

New year was indeed a good beginning for 2008, and that did not seem to make sense. I mean our new year's celebration that is. That being said, while the wheels are beginning to turn to a brighter tomorrow, Sky Cable stepped back and chose to hide in the dark. Gone are the channels BTV, Solar Sports and Jack TV. What on earth were they thinking? I miss the late night shows I watch in these channels, I miss NFL games, NBA games, insert-whatever-good show- here. Balls, the channel that replaced BTV is just lame. It would have been a good channel if the mentioned cable company maintained BTV and Solar. I would call the "league integration". With simply having collegiate televised games and none of the good stuff, it will bore you to death. If it were amateurs playing, I would rather watch Friday Night Lights, or Gossip Girl reruns (self-imposed reruns, that is). Then, Conan and Jay is not shown in ETC anymore, and they transferred to Jack TV. Great. Gone as well are the WWE days.

Well, in effect, they did make me watch TV less, which is a good thing. This time around, my TV's purpose is to lull me to sleep. Gone are the days of being unable to sleep because you have just watched a great NFL game. What a load of bullcrap.

For those who are interested in a few song downloads, trip on these:

Young Folks- Peter, Bjorn and John
With Me- Sum 41
The Gift- Angels and Airwaves
Nolita Fairytale- Vanessa Carlton
Apologize- Timbaland feat. One Republic
What goes around... Comes around- Justin Timberlake
Stripper- Soho Dolls
The Air We Breathe- Figurines
Happily Never After- Nicole Scherzinger
It Means Nothing- Stereophonics
One Week of Danger- The Virgins
Pressure- Paramore
If You Want to Party (I found Lovin')- All Saints
Please Don't Stop the Music- Rihanna
Reason to Believe- Dashboard Confessional
The Instrumental- Lupe Fiasco
Must be Dreaming- Frou Frou

I do not think they sound alike. You have pop, indie, alternative, emo, whatever you call them. I would say it is good exposure. Those are the songs I listen as of late, and it is nice to switch from song to song, changing pace and mood. That's all for tonight.

Going Soft

2008-01-10T10:35:00.000+08:00

Yes. Hooked on Gossip Girl. And being enthusiastic about it with everyone is just half the story.

A friend of mine burned a DVD for me the other day, warning me of being hooked to it and not being able to stop with only watching an episode or two. She was right. For some reason this TV show hit me in the perfect spot. Oddly, as "shallow" as everything in the show might be, I have realized so many things. Things you do not usually realize in a show like this. Anyway, there were affirmations as well.

I am enthusiastic mainly because I am enthusiastic about it. As much as I enjoy watching the show, I have never been absorbed in watching anything for the longest time. I was laughing, on the edge of my seat, muttering profanities, and sympathizing with the characters. And yes, kinilig din ako. Now that, is messed up. Why, because I have been kilig for almost everyone in the freaking show. From the parents to their children, and vice-versa. There were sapul moments. Countless ones at that.

I guess the writer's did an amazing job of not making the viewers wait for so much, for so long. They keep you going and riled up to a certain extent, then they reward you for your patience in the end, even if you did not get what you want. Witty script too. It is too obvious that it was produced by Josh Schwartz, who is the creator of The OC as well. So in the end, it was The OC in NY. Of course, go New York!

The really good part are the songs that were played. The music of GG is no less than that of The OC. I enjoy watching the show more because of the music. Great stuff. The very first episode, they played "Young Folks" by Peter Bjorn and John. That particular scene where they played the song, it was morning (I assumed), and Serena was looking out the window of the train already got me hooked. I do not even find S as pretty as Blair, yet I like her so much in the show. In the beginning, as much as B was the bitch, it would seem that pre-boarding school stint of S, S was the queen of them all. I like how she has this liking for Dan and how Dan got his dream girl, which is S of course. I am pretty sure they will show, and have been showing, that Dan got his dream girl, he's enjoying it, but at what price? So probably they will break-up, then S will revert back to her old self, while B will be nicer, after all that, things will go back into place. Usual, typical things, just in this setting.

As much as I can write all day about it, elaborating on the schemes and how we can relate to it, that is not why I wrote this entry. I have so many thoughts, realizations and dreams that I cannot comprehend. I never consider myself part of that elite group (not THAT kind of elite, they are just too much in the show), and I can be mean, but I choose not to be. Their school culture in the U.S. is really different, since they have to be like that. But that's not the point. The point is I am so absorbed by the show.

So, am I really a shallow person? Or probably a mean person at that? Or have I gotten bored with law school? I'm enjoying so much that I am surprised at myself.

Not that it matters anyway, I just needed to share GG thoughts. Everyone's busy studying, most of my close friends have not watched it, most I know that I cannot exactly share it with them all day have watched it, and I cannot wait for se01ep13.

The Power of Chuck Norris.

2008-01-05T04:47:00.000+08:00

I've mentioned it before, but I will mention it again. It is, well naturally a misconception, but if Huckabee even becomes the Republican presidential candidate, I will hold Norris responsible.

Obama and Huckabee won the Iowa caucuses. So, by now you should be thinking, "Who endorsed Obama?"

Oprah.

That being said, U.S. politics I think, is beginning to become like Philippine politics, or is it? Maybe we were ahead of the world's time (well we are compared to the U.S., literally anyway), or third world countries are beginning to influence the better ones.

Bottom line: Oprah vs. Chuck Norris.

If there is one person that may, in the slightest possibility, beat Chuck Norris, that is Oprah. Naaaaaah. I cannot believe it. I refuse to! The power of Chuck Norris shall press on!

My personal choices are Clinton and Giuliani. Primarily because I think America is not ready for a black president, and that they would take in a white female president first before a black one. It seems that they are on hyperspeed when it comes to change. So things are truly going to be interesting. Those are simply my choices. I have not researched on them. I would rather focus on my country first. We must help ourselves before we can help others.

Audi R8

2008-01-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

I want I want I want! No, not really.

I got the picture from an article about Sports Car sales and a taste of of what's to come in 2008 here.

If I happen to be able to write about more sensible entries, I would, unfortunately though my mind is beginning to shift to work mode. So many things to do, even if it seems as if I have done so much.

Chinese Horoscope: The Rat

2008-01-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

I am a Wood Rat. Yes. On fire!

Source: This Site,

Acquired from: Candy's Multiply
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The Rat

Being born a Rat is nothing to be ashamed of. In China, the Rat is respected and considered a courageous, enterprising person. It is deemed an honor to be born in the Year of the Rat and it is considered a privilege to be associated with a Rat. Rats know exactly where to find solutions and can take care of themselves and others without problems. They use their instinctive sense of observation to help others in times of need and are among the most fit of all the Animal signs to survive most any situation.

Years of the Rat

First in the cycle, Rat Years begin the sequence and recur every twelfth year. The Chinese New Year does not fall on a specific date, so it is essential to check the calendar to find the exact date on which each Rat year actually begins.

The Sign of the Rat

Being born under this sign determines many talents, as well as other characteristics that may not be so commendable. Rats are very lively and need a lot of mental and physical stimulation. They can be calm and perceptive, but sometimes their brains can cause a mental restlessness, tempting them to take on too much, only to discover they are unable to meet their commitments. Rats are blessed with one of the best intellects going. Add to their intelligence a curiosity and a bright imagination, and they seem as sharp as a needle.

The sign of the Rat is the first sign in the cycle giving Rat people exude great leadership qualities and are good at taking the lead. They don't mind a lot of responsibility and they demonstrate a strong presence that other people respect. For those with the Rat nature, status and monetary satisfaction are the greatest motivation.

RAT FACTS:

People born in the Year of the Rat share certain characteristics. The Rat sign is an abbreviated way of characterizing that individual's personality. Following are features associated with the sign of the Rat.

First in order, Chinese name-SHU, sign of charm
Hour-11pm-12:59am Month-December
Western Counterpart-Sagittarius

CHARACTERISTICS

Smart, Magnetic, Well-liked, Affable, Quick-witted, Surreptitious, Selfish, Protective, Calculating

IN YOUR ELEMENT

The characteristics of the Rat Sign are tempered by one of the five Chinese elements of Metal, Water, Wood, Fire and Earth overlaying a 5-year cycle of characteristics on the original 12-year cycle.

THE METAL RAT 1900 AND 1960
Of all the Rats, these are the toughest and most resolute. They are visionary and possess an emotional intensity that can lead to feelings of rage, envy, or possessiveness. They like to be in charge, and can act selfishly to get what they want. In relationships, business or personal, they can be obstinate. Metal rats have to bear in mind that meeting their partner halfway would help their relationships tremendously. They take great pride in their homes and enjoy decorating them in their impressively good taste.

THE WATER RAT 1912 AND 1972
Being guided by the Water element means these Rats have a knack for influencing people. With their strong intellectual powers and great insight, they are also great puzzle solvers. They are quick to understand others and are incredibly practical people. Rats apply their talents to their everyday lives, making them obliging, generous and compassionate to other people. Generally, they are liked and respected by everyone. Like all Rats, however, they can be determined to seek their own gain, and will not mind using these talents to achieve it - though generally without losing anyone's respect in doing so.

THE WOOD RAT 1924 AND 1984

Despite having a remarkable facade of self-confidence, deep down, Wood Rats are the least sure of themselves compared to other Rats. However, they wouldn't dream of showing this side of themselves to anyone. Only close companions of a Wood Rat would ever suspect that he or she had such self-doubt. In fact Wood Rats are often worried about downfall, despite their ability to find success. Well-liked, proficient, and good leaders at work, Wood Rats seem to function best when they are surrounded by family and friends. Cordial and delicate, they are usually well loved by family, friends and peers.

THE FIRE RAT 1936 AND 1996

Fire adds a bit of spontaneity and vigor to the already spirited Rat. These Rats like change and travel and are eager to start new projects or to take trips to exotic places. Fire Rats are likely to change their occupations and residences more often than most, and essentially shun any kind of routine. They can be anxious and impulsive, but their zest for life is quite irresistible, and they have the Rat's ability to along so well with others. Compared to other Rats, Fire Rats are likely to be more charitable, autonomous, and energetic and the least self-controlled.

THE EARTH RAT 1948 AND 2008
The Earth adds solidity to the Rat's personality. An Earth Rat is conventional and a good achiever who likes to establish roots early in order to make a secure future for himself and his family. These Rats have the typical Rat ingenuity and mental capacity, but a strong sense of reality often alludes them preventing them from going after anything that could be impromptu. Earth Rats are honorable and love to be stabilized. Slowly and steadily acquiring wealth gives them a sense of inner peace. Although they are capable of being stingy with their finances, they do possess warm feelings for their family and friends.

Health and home
RAT HEALTH

The affect of the sign of the Rat is energetic, and demonstrates enough endurance to fight most any sickness. Yet, all Rats tend to be tense, full of nervous energy, petulant and prone to stress. Rats also harbor a bit of aggression; yet, they are usually able to control it. Yoga would benefit Rats by calming their aggressive natures and helping them manage stress.

AT HOME WITH THE RAT

Rats make good homemakers who are always willing to do household chores. Rats are not usually interested in keeping up with the times, and it doesn't matter to them whether or not their furnishings are in style. What does matter is that their home is a refuge expressing warmth, comfort and vogue. Light blue is their color of choice for home decor. Because this is a sign of acquisition, the Rat person's house is presumably bursting with various knick-knacks collected over the years. Most Rats are cheerful, domesticated individuals who find happiness at home with their family.

Career and finance
THE RAT ON THE JOB
The Chinese say others should always listen to the advice of the Rat. Because of their intellect and observatory powers, Rat people possess prudence and perception. They can anticipate problems, and are always able to see the big picture. They can hone in on issues at hand and make measurable judgments. These skills, combined with their sense of aspiration also make them clever operators. Status, money, title, and recognition are important to the Rat. They have keen senses of observation that allow them to foresee upcoming business opportunities as well as potential occupational problems. The Rat makes a better boss than an employee and, although motivated, they can be pinned down by routines. Rats work better in flexible situations where they can be freely creative.

MONEY AND THE RAT

Cunning and thrifty, Rats have a knack with money and are apt to save for rainy days. When capable, the Rat is a great money saver, and in strapped times he knows how to make something out of nothing or how to turn make things advantageous for himself. Although few Rats suffer financially, the Chinese have a proverb: They who pile up grain hoards have much to lose.

RAT CAREERS

Those born in the Year of the Rat also share the same kinds of goals and objectives in life. The occupations best suited for the Rat are listed below:

RATS MAKE EXCELLENT:

Writers, Broadcasters, Actors, Advisors, Counselors, Lawyers, Politicians, Designers, Engineers, Managers, Directors, Administrators, Entrepreneurs, Musicians, Stand-up Comedians, Researchers, Historians, Race Car Drivers

CONGENIAL BUSINESS PARTNERS

Whether Rats are compatible with their business partners depends on whether their signs are harmonious or antagonistic to those of their partners. Considering the congruity of their own characters and the characters of their business colleagues can also be very useful.

Rats Ruled By Benefit From Are Antagonistic to
Metal Earth Dragons Fire Sheep
Water Metal Rabbits Earth Horses
Wood Water Monkeys Metal Snakes
Fire Wood Oxen Water Rats
Earth Fire Pigs Wood Roosters

Leisurely activities and pleasures
LIKES AND DISLIKES

Since Rats are born under the same Animal sign, they often share likes and dislikes. Following are similar likes and dislikes of the Rats personality:
Rats Like:
Color Preference: Light-Blue
Gems and Stones: Diamond, Amethyst, Garnet
Suitable Gifts: car accessories, art books, gym memberships, geographical maps
Hobbies and Pastimes: Interior design, playing basketball, crafts, painting
Rats' Dislike: Doing without things they want, strict time keeping, any routines, being at the end of the line

THE RAT VACATION

Travel delights the Rat personality and ignites his curiosity. Sunbathing is not the ideal way for a Rat to spend his vacation. Rats are adventurers. They want to explore, examine, visit and party during their time off. They want to try new foods, find new sights and experience the culture of the area they are visiting. And, of course, if they can come home with an exotic souvenir to add to their collection their vacation will have been an instant success.

FRIENDS AND ENEMIES

Generally friendly and sociable, the Rat is one of the extroverts of the Animal Zodiac. Often, the Rat is lively and genial, and has a special gift for easing the minds of others. It is not surprising that Rats have a lot of friends. They are great speakers and intriguing conversationalists, and can generally find something to say on just about any topic or subject. Of course, there is always that renowned Rat lure that allows them to charm the pants off of people! To the people they love, Rats can be amazingly charitable, popular and supportive, and will go out of their way to be certain their loved ones are content. On the other hand, if the Rat does not like someone, he is considered fair game and can be used to achieve any and all of the Rat's desires. At the end of the day, though, the Rat is a loyal friend and will be there for his companions through thick and thin.

Compatible Friends: Dragons and Monkeys
Mortal Enemy: Horses

RAT PARENTS AND CHILDREN

Rat parents are dedicated to their children. They encompass their little ones with love and attention and enjoy watching their offspring grow and experience the world. When their children are small they brood a great deal over them. Rats become concerned if their babies don't develop as quickly as other children. They anguish over whether or not they are raising their youngsters correctly. With the mental capacity to pick things up easily, Rats tend to get agitated with people who are not quite as quick-witted as they are. No wonder this trait could lead to conflict between Rat parents and their children should any of their children be late bloomers or harbor learning disabilities. Overall, Rats are indulgent parents who don't like denying their youngsters of things they want, and the children soon learn how to wrap their parents around their little fingers.

THE RAT INFANT AND CHILD

Rat babies love to be loved and cuddled. When they are young, Rat babies tend to depend tremendously on their parents, but later in life they develop natural leadership qualities. During their baby years, Rats mature slowly, but gain momentum as they become toddlers. Eventually, they begin to exhibit active mentalities, so, in the early years, plenty of sleep is necessary. In school, the young Rats are eager to learn. It is then, too, that Rats begin collecting things, and like to fill their bedrooms with pebbles, shells and keepsakes of every kind. Generally, young Rats are smart little people who are artistic and literary students. They are well-rounded and many of them do well in sports, too. Being born in the first sign of the Chinese horoscope motivates these children to be pioneers and gives them a need to be first in line.

RAT PARENT/CHILD KINSHIPS

Some parents click immediately with their children and others find they will never have a close relationship no matter how hard they try to make it happen. Following are the compatibility ratings between Rat parents and their children.

Lovers and partners

Rats are beautiful people with magnetic personalities. The Rat himself can't help but notice the admiration he receives from others. If the Chinese say there are few poor Rats, there are an even fewer number who are not sexually stimulating- especially as young people. Rat people are romantic, and are always happier to have someone to share with.

RAT ENRAPTURE

One of the Rat's greatest assets is his charm. Rats can melt hearts with their smiles. Add that to their coquettish personalities and you can easily see how they conquer the hearts of others. And, since Rats love to go out, they have plenty of chances to meet potential suitors or future partners. An annoying quirk of some Rats is they have a difficult time severing ties with former lovers. Obviously, this can pose potential conflicts for the Rat and his new lover and can even endanger his ability to develop new relationships. When the Rat finally settles down with Mr. or Ms. Right, he will find a sincere satisfaction in the intimacy of the partnership.

A RAT'S PARTNER

Although Rats like to be in the driver's seat, they do need partners who can keep up with their active lifestyles. Chinese horoscopes are very specific about which partnerships have the potential to be successful in love and in business. Yet, though destiny can point us in the right direction, we must still make efforts to maintain loving relationships. Following is a brief description of how a Rat will affect a relationship with other Animal signs.

PARTNERS IN LOVE

Rat*Rat
This is a prosperous partnership, especially in a business atmosphere. These two are bound to compete!

Rat*Ox
Very sexually enticing, yet likely to fail at marriage.

Rat*Tiger
Potential for great companionship, but you will have some major disputes.

Rat*Rabbit
Rats think Rabbits are boring. Rabbits love to be out and about. You will only frustrate each other.

Rat*Dragon
A solid, caring partnership. You value each other and get along very well.

Rat*Snake
Work on your differences and you could learn something form each other.

Rat*Horse
Don't even think about it.

Rat*Sheep
If you both try hard and make great efforts, you will survive.

Rat*Monkey
You share similar goals and will make a great match.

Rat*Rooster
It's just not worth it…there are too many conflicts.

Rat*Dog
Rats think Dogs are tiresome, but you have the potential to be a good match for each other.

Rat*Pig
Uphill, downhill, uphill…you love each other intensely, but keep an eye on your checkbooks!

EAST MEETS WEST
ARIES RAT
These are secure, bold, go-getting people who cannot pass on a challenge. Approachable and captivating, Aries Rats can also be short-tempered and touchy, especially with those who can't keep up.

LIBRAN RAT
Doubly affable, Libran Rats are smooth operators. These people are elegant and cultured. They are drawn to artistic pleasures such as music and theater. Pleasant to be around, Libran Rats excel in advertising and PR.

TAUREAN RAT
Taurean Rats are intimidating people. Their sharp minds never skip a beat and they don't lose sight of their goals. Conventional deep down, making money is their motivating factor.

SCORPIO RAT
Scorpio Rats are the strong, emotional types. Few would suspect quite sensitive these Rats are. They have an intense aura that allows them to channel their energies.

GEMINI RAT
Gemini Rats are blessed with the gift of the conversation. They are articulate and keen. Easily bored, Gemini Rats thrive on variety, and are happiest with their hands in many things. They do tend to take a long time to make decisions and once they so, to change their minds a few times.

SAGITTARIAN RAT
Sagittarian Rats sail through life and couple wisdom with perceptive. They can spot an opportunity a mile away, and are quick to act on it. Generally, these Rats are lucky but they have itchy feet.

CANCERIAN RAT
Cancerian Rats like to be individuals and to stand out. Material things are important to them, but what they value their family more than anything else.

CAPRICORN RAT
Industrial and tenacious, Capricorn Rats are profoundly enterprising and make substantial progress in their occupations. These people expect their dedication to be rewarded. They may not be that sentimental, but they are loyal and honest.

LEONINE RAT
The Leonine Rat is a mystical personality, dynamic and responsive. In addition to enthusiasm, high ethical standards and wise decision-making guarantee this Rat will be successful.

AQUARIAN RAT
A bit unorthodox, these Rats are impulsive and outgoing. They are community-minded and more selfless than other Rats. Aquarian Rats are determined to work hard in order to better mankind.

VIRGO RAT
With gifts for research and experimentation and an eye for detail, these Rats have the capability to make small assessments. The hard-working Virgo Rat will find fulfillment in any job where intense investigation is necessary. There is something naive about them that attracts quieter, frailer people as their partners.

PISCEAN RAT
This Rat is delicate and incisive, and does well as a consultant or a counselor. Piscean Rats are creative, but tend to lack the confidence necessary and thus feel a need to be part of a team.

Wheeling Up

2007-12-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

I am glad that this coming 2008, I have something good to ride on.

This December was just plain lousy, but what can a week do to your entire 2007, with tons of ups and downs?

A better, waaaay better glimpse of what is to come.

The benefit when you get down, is that the up becomes sweeter. You have gained wisdom, and through patience, you still are able to attain the things that make you happy.

A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!! YEAR OF THE RAT. IT IS MY YEAR!!!

I hope it is yours too. It's all a matter of perspective, so join me in this positive output to benefit all. Helping out one another, no matter how dumb you feel, is one of the best things you can do in life.

Sa Mga Nakaalala

2007-12-29T05:53:00.000+08:00

Salamat.

This is not to indirectly hit those people who forgot. It has never been a big thing for me.

This entry is a toast to those who remembered. Quite ironic, don't you think? haha!

Nah, not really, just a special mention since it took a little effort to remember since I never let on or do anything about it. Other than that, it is all the same.

But wait! THERE'S MORE! As I have said, it is not a big deal, but I will have to qualify it a bit. Some people, do intend to carve in your head their birthdays, want you to greet them, etcetc. They will hold some personal grudge against you if you do not remember, etcetc. Then, they forget.

No excuses. I expect that if you ask that of me (which is asking a lot), I expect you do the same. Don't whine about work, don't whine about "oooohhh, I lost track of time." Stop whining. You forgot. End of story.

Ngayon medyo ironic na siya. Haha! Sabog na ang aking pag-iisip. Gaya ng sinabi ko, hindi ito malaking bagay. Ngunit, kapag ginawa ninyong malaking bagay, panindigan ninyo. Ganoon lang kasimple.

I can only think of one person about the THERE'S MORE part. For Scapegoat purposes only. An excuse to "berserker barrage" someone (5 pesos for those who get it). It is boring at home and I need some form of fun.

Lest I forget, the purpose of this entry is simple. What a day can do to turn things around, upside down, whatever side or around you want it to be. Everyday is a new day. One lousy day is just that. Do not expect that the following day is the same. But then you have the theory of momentum, Murphy's Law, and the like. Well, this is my answer: idaan mo na lang sa inom iyan!

Side note: Tagalog part is for Lili, Waps, Rap and Joneil.

SABAW. BOW.

A Present

2007-12-28T13:19:00.000+08:00

Benazir Bhutto: 1953- 2007.

Need I say more? Well, everyone is taking "democracy" to a whole new level.

-- Father led Pakistan before being executed in 1979

-- Spent five years in prison

-- Served as PM from 1988-1990 and 1993-1996

-- Sacked twice by president on corruption charges

-- Formed alliance with rival ex-PM Nawaz Sharif in 2006

-- Ended self-imposed exile by returning to Pakistan in October

-- Educated at Harvard and Oxford

Here is a brief summary about her that was recently released.

To be more recent, it was mentioned in CNN, Anderson Cooper 360 that Bhutto was shot twice. One in the neck, then one in the chest. The gunman was said to be riding a motorcycle that went beside the SUV Bhutto was on, climbed on the SUV, and shot her while she was up in the sunroof waving at her supporters. Due to the mortal wounds she had suffered, she died half an hour after being rushed to the hospital. More information of the aftermath and personal experiences with the media in connection to Bhutto here. Pardon me for being a CNN fan. For those BBC people, here's a link for you.

This is her coffin, which was carried by her supporters.

This is a map of where it happened. I acquired it from the abovementioned BBC article relating to Bhutto.

1. Benazir Bhutto had addressed a rally of thousands of supporters in Rawalpindi's Liaqat Bagh Park
2. As her convoy was leaving the park via the rear gate onto Murree road, she was shot twice in the neck and chest
3. The gunman then blew himself up killing at least 16 people
4. Ms Bhutto was taken to Rawalpindi General Hospital, but was pronounced dead at 1816 local time.

In sum, she is now truly part of her family political tradition. Such a shame.

Happy Birthday.

Coffee, Tables, Music

2007-12-19T01:34:00.000+08:00

In Conclusion

I have no idea why I wrote coffee in the very beginning of the title, when it was only mentioned once. Tables and music, well they appear more, albeit implied. I feel like a nomad. Maybe I am. Either way, it is good to experience every corner of the room, if you know what I mean.

Before Going Home

I was alone, in Starbucks. I decided to buy coffee and kill some time before I drove to my home, with the intention of avoiding traffic. Observing everyone around you is always a nice thing to do. For one, it can be comforting, knowing that you are not alone, or simply because there is no pressure to be at your best. It seems that everyone is on equal footing. Then this one girl caught my eye. The girl that works in that particular store, in that particular mall, and always goes out for a smoke on her break. Beautiful as always. Too bad I had no more cigs to have an excuse and stay outside. Studying music, and I mean listening to everything is indeed a draining process.

Before Before Going Home

I saw our professor at the B1 entrance, with his officemates, and he offered me a cigarette. I accepted. And what happened then was the usual music talk we usually have with that professor. An officemate of theirs looked familiar, and it was there that I realized how I came to know her. I am glad I still have a brain. That moment with them also made me realize that my brain's fried, and that I do not want to go to class anymore, and much less, study for Taxation for the year.

Before Before Before Going Home

I helped out some of my blockmates/orgmates/good friends to set up in the 4th floor for their Christmas performances. They did great in front of the faculty and it is a proud moment for Forte, the Ateneo Law Music Organization.

Shortly after, they did the same performance for our blockmates who were left in class. Then my friend played his set. He has a soulful voice that a pretty girl could not contain herself and blurted out, "You're sexy!" The other said, "Wow, I feel like a groupie." For a spontaneous set, those are indeed good results.

Syllogisms

2007-12-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

Chicken Fight

KFC. It used to be Kentucky Friend Chicken. Whatever. I love their chicken. Everyone does. This particular entry is not to entice people to eat at KFC. Good Lord, everyone knows how delicious their chicken is, not to mention their ultimate weapon, their chicken gravy. That gravy is the best gravy I have tasted yet.

Fine, they are all that when it comes to food. The news regarding their chickens being mutants or whatnot has not deterred my friends nor myself from eating in KFC. As of late, I have become a little frustrated at the establishment, particularly the one in Power Plant. I am frustrated at their SERVICE.

Yes folks, KFC was never good in this department, which is disappointing. If they were better managed, they might be able to actually compete with McDonald's and Jollibee! But no, they have lousy service. They are losing customers because of this, and to me this is the worst kind on how to lose a customer.

I admit, sometimes I eat at an establishment because of their service. I know I can eat better food elsewhere, but their service makes up for that disadvantage. It is also a reason why it is great eating at fine dining establishments.

"So, since you know that KFC is a fast-food chain, and not a fine dining establishment, why are you complaining about the service?"

-- You are asking the wrong question. This should not be the mentality of the general public. The question is stupid.

Red Lights and Something Nice

2007-12-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

First off...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAOLO JAVIER! Java for short, Javie for shortest. December 10!

The Holiday

This is a good movie. When I watched it in the movie theater, I was not able to appreciate it because I lost the mood for it right before it began. Then, my mom brought home a DVD of it, shortly after I watched it again, and I enjoyed it! Now, it is playing in HBO.

It is a good movie for several reasons: nice script, great actors, and great soundtrack. It also had a scene where Jack Black was holding a coffee from Coffee Bean, which is my favorite coffee shop (with Starbucks alternating). I loved the scenes where it would show the strong winds in L.A., and the snow in Europe.

Circles, Makati Shang

Fury, the flag football team that I currently in right now, held a team dinner, along with the Avengers women's flag football team at Circles. The food was great. It had so much food I did not know where to begin! It was pricey, around P 1,500.00, but it was well worth it. I had 6 rounds of circle goodness. I ate Prime Rib, Lechon (I think), Prawns, Tuna Sashimi (A lot!), fruits, marshmallows, strawberries, rice, vegetables, ice cream, and some chocolatey dessert in a glass.

Our beadle in the block, Angel, was there along with Ipe and Louie because the reception of Angel's sister's wedding was there. So I met up with them for a brief moment, then I went back with my teammates. It was a classy night that I will not forget in the near future. Parking fees in hotels suck.

Wanting Something You Cannot Have

So if you cannot have it, might as well keep a brochure and maybe it could serve as your motivation for anything. Other than that, well, I would not know exactly. Lack of funds. It is not really a bad thing when you have what you need: a home, loved ones, a loyal dog, a fish with a tumor that just won't die, and everything else. Anything else, is considered a big bonus.

I am brain-dead. I have been sleepy since this afternoon. This is only supposed to be a birthday entry for my friend.

A Birthday Surprise for Gigi.

2007-12-08T07:32:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEA AUSTRIA!!!

Gea's birthday is today, December 8! It is very difficult to pierce her corporate veil (okay law school joke, it's sickening). Her boyfriend, Joco, made this site for dedicated birthday greetings etcetc. It was a supposed to be a "well-planned" event, but due to fortuitous events (I gotta stop with this law crap), there was almost every opportunity for Gea to smell a surprise birthday thing. Fortunately, she's slow and sabaw (the reason why Java gave her a Lucky Me! Bulalo cup noodle soup) that she never noticed a thing!

The general plan was that Gea and everyone else will meet up at Mag:Net Serendra to see Jep's "gig", and also to celebrate, in part, her birthday, since today she will be with her family. Jep was supposed to pick her up along with Diale, and then they were supposed to pick up Ipe in his condo in The Fort. Thereafter, Jep will complain about his stomach and will plead that they first go to Ipe's unit so he may use the bathroom to unload. So when he opens the door, the gang will surprise her. It is a simple plan, which was executed to perfection, however there were tell-tale signs of a surprise thing:

>Joco said to Gea that he's drunk, and that he's at Mag:Net already with Ipe, and they were already drinking, so Ipe's excuse was that he forgot his wallet (and it's odd because he usually brings a car, and in this case, he wasn't).

>Java was piss-ass drunk so he went home, this was Java's reply to Gea. But when she asked someone else, they said he's somewhere else.

> From how the circumstances were shaping up, Ipe's going back to his condo is the most impractical thing to do. Jep while he was near Ipe's condo was already acting out the complaint, then Gea said, "Umihi ka na lang diyan sa tabi!" Tsktsk.

> When they were about to park, Gea saw my car (and my car's pretty unique as regards the gang) and she thought that it might be my car. Fortunately she did not see Kit's car, nor Kit's driver, because if this happened, everything would have fallen into place for Gea.

All in all, she was still surprised as hell, and she enjoyed every moment there was to savor. So did we.

She had her sabaw present, and her serious present. The kabuhayan showcase as seen above, is the sabaw present, the serious one being a dress.

From the left: Kit, Jep, Ipe.

From the left: Ron, Mardje, Muscle (well, I do not know the spelling, but what the heck). Might be Macel.

Here's the cute couple!

It was one hell of an evening. We played Wii, had a good laugh at it, tons of pizza, drinks, and great people. The pictures were pretty much the participants in the surprise party, with Java, Diale, Dane, and myself, who were not in the pictures above. When someone suggested the Magic Sing, there went the neighborhood. If we were at Lyra's place, the Korean neighbor would have been throwing all the containers he had, shortly after suffer a heart attack. The small group created so much noise. Ron was a great singer and stand-up comedian as well. We started around 1:30 a.m., and I arrived at home around 7:30 a.m.. I usually hate the feeling when I go home when the sun has risen, but this event falls under the exception to the general rule.

I took Java to Bicutan, nearer to his place at least than going home all the way from The Fort. We took note of how Fort looks like in the morning, and we both agreed that it looked fantastic. It's the ellipse from the last statement anyone could make based on the party. An evening that ended in a bright fashion, and a bright beginning slowly unraveling.

I'm supposed to go to Red Corner later today to see Ken Shamrock and Royce Gracie, but heck, I will just sleep the day off, because I have to wake up for the team dinner.

Special thanks to Ipe for providing us with his unit, and Wii, along with Magic Sing as well.

Yellow Lights

2007-12-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

TREEEEEEEEEEEEEES

It was peaceful in Boni High Street. While I was on my way to the parking lot, smoking what was supposed to be my last stick for the evening, I saw this truck in the middle of the road. It had a tree in its back and it was being lifted to install it on the island, making its home with the other palm trees that were in place. With Christmas just around the corner (yes I said it again), the outdoor temperature is significantly lower. High Street's the way to go, or Serendra. Right now, I would say it is a good date place or what-have-you. If you are up for a walk, to hang out for coffee, or dinner, or some classy shopping, this is the place. Do I need to say do this past 6pm? Well, I just said it. I would have no idea if sunset has a good effect on the place.

Leadership, Friendship, Papacy

My friend wrote this on her blog, and it made me think. The pertinent portion is as follows:

"In my opinion, while a leader shouldn’t be doing everything, a leader should be making sure that people are working, knowing what they need to be doing. A leader should be the one to personally follow up with each person and ask what is working and what isn’t and make suggestions to help."

This is of course, in a working atmosphere. It is a valid statement. They have to look after their men, or teammates, or whatever you call them. It is just essential for this leader to have vision. After all, everyone's following the leader because of their respect for that person, and of course they all believe in his vision. Direction is important. There are a lot of people who shun such a burden, yet they bear followers still. A leader does not want to lead a group of people, rather a leader shares a vision with the group that only he or she can make a reality for everyone.

I am not saying that that person is the only one who will bring them to salvation. Like in a football team, the quarterback, no matter how important the linemen are, his receivers, his tailback, the spotlight's always on him. His helmet has a receiver to get the plays from his coordinator, to dictate to his teammates. Then, he surveys the defense and makes the adjustments for his team to execute the set play to perfection. If it does not work, he bears the brunt of the blame. Fortunately, nowadays, commentators in sports have been more analytical, and makes their commentary well-rounded, impressing on its viewers that no team is a one-man show. Everyone has their obligation on the field, and one misses an assignment, the whole play, team, will suffer.

Bottom line, it is the person who can handle the pressure. Being the leader does not mean you are the best, or you are better than the rest. It simply means that you can make other people better, and that you can take a hit for them. In the long run, those people under that leader, grow to be leaders as well.

Bottom bottom line is, it's your whole personal make-up. Some are born capable, some are not. That's how the world works. I do not get it sometimes. I would like for everyone to have an equal opportunity in anything, but then you can blame its non-happening on tons of factors.

A First Semester San Pedro Moment

One fine evening, our professor decided to make a blockmate of mine stand up in front of our class and...

TA-DA!!!

Recit, Re-shoot.

I would love to have a high-powered camera, but my wallet won't let me. I love taking these kinds of shots. I love taking candid shots. But I am not a camwhore. My friends are, so if I had a camera, practice is easy.

That's it for now. I do not want to be "over diligent" with anything, but the training and everything around says that you must! Eck.

Good/ Bad

2007-12-06T02:37:00.000+08:00

UNANG BALITA

Our former professor, Rene Villanueva, passed away yesterday, 5 December, 2007, 2 p.m. Please extend your prayers to him. Thanks.

In Other News

Chuck Norris' power is amazing. In this article, Norris' endorsement of United States presidential candidate, Mike Huckabee, had an enormous effect in support, or at least in curiosity. Oprah and Barbara Streisand's support for Obama and Clinton respectively did not effect that much change in people's support for their candidates. Norris however...

If Huckabee wins, you know what it is...

Martina Mcbride

I say that she's hot for a country singer (well, supposedly you have LeAnn Rimes in the mix). There is one song I like from her right now, which is Independence Day. It was one of her earlier songs that was a hit. I am not exactly a country music fan, but I do appreciate any kind of music (even house. tugs tugs tugs).

Well, I also took pleasure in listening to KT Tunstall, Bonnie Pink, Frou Frou, Jem and Anna Nalick. Wow. Parang ang labo. I'd tag Tunstall as, "The songs I like in movies that I never figured who the artist is." Now I know anyway, so I guess I should think of a new title.

Speaking of Jem, "Showtime Synergy!"

That's it for now.

A Big Dose of Anything

2007-12-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

Monday. A lazy day. For some reason, everyone seemed to move a notch lower. People were relaxed, maybe too relaxed. Christmas season is just around the corner (and more just around the corner when next week comes). Here are some thoughts that stuck with me last weekend.

Mourn Mourn Mourn

My condolences to the Candy and her family, for the loss of her grandmother, who passed away last November 27, 2007. Funeral was last Saturday if the author is not mistaken.

Our Filipino teacher in college, Rene Villanueva, is in critical condition. He was dead on arrival, but the doctors managed to bring him back. Please extend your prayers to him as well.

Rest in Peace, Sean Taylor of the Washington Redskins. He passed away last November 27, he was shot in the leg that hit the femoral artery in his leg, which caused him to lose a significant amount of blood. It seemed like a simple robbery, but the Police are silent regarding details about the shooting. Taylor was a tremendous athlete, feared for his hard hits, but was suspect in pass coverage at times. He had his fair share of problems off the field but this season seemed like his breakout/turnaround season. Too bad he had to go.

NFL Tidbits

In relation to Taylor's passing, I agree with Michael Silver in his article about what the Redskins did on their very first defensive play. They played only ten men, honoring Taylor. It was a grand gesture, and it was the right thing to do in my opinion. Sure, they gave a 22-yard run because of that, but it did not matter. Unfortunately, they also lost that game to the Buffalo Bills, 17-16.

I was able to watch the game between the Indianapolis Colts and the Jacksonville Jaguars, and it was a good game I would say for both teams. The first quarter was a mess, challenge flags everywhere (out of 3 challenges, I think only stood the challenge). It was poor officiating. As the quarters progressed, the Colts was able to get two quick scores. The Jags scored their first TD by eating almost 8 minutes off the 2nd quarter. Now that is good offense. In the end, the Colts won, and the Jags, albeit a good team, is nowhere near Superbowl material because they need to beat great teams like, the Colts. The Colts have been plagued by injuries, Marvin Harrison still out, and Dwight Freeney gone for the season.

My favored team, the Denver Broncos, lost against their rival, the Oakland Raiders. Disgusting.

My best friend dreamed twice about the Dolphins (who are 0-12 in the season), beating the Patriots (who are 11-0, with an upcoming match against the Ravens). Right. Dream on. We bet on it. Ang matalo, pipitikin sa taenga.

NBA

The Orlando Magic won against the Los Angeles Lakers today. Dwight Howard is truly a freak. He inadvertenly hit Turiaf in the face and Turiaf sustained a concussion. Man-child is a fitting title for him. There is no telling what he can do. Why? He's only turning 22 this December 8. Sure, LeBron is tagged as maybe the next "Michael Jordan", I'd say Howard is the next Duncan/Shaq?

Urbandub, uberbubbly

Their latest album is a hit. I give it 4.5 case piles out of 5 case piles.

PROS: Great arrangement. The recording is fantastic! Crisp music, every song is memorable because of all the change in tempo and entrance of the instruments. Every instrument has its own identity, and every instrument is heard. This is an album that does not grow on you, it slaps you in the face right then and there. Instant recognition that your P260.00 did not go down the drain. No more time for justifying why you bought the album in the first place. Great stuff.

CONS: EMO LYRICS! Well, I cannot think of another topic for them to sing anyway. The environment, yeah that would be nice, but they already did that by collaborating with Dicta License. What I am saying is the theme and feel of the lyrics are the same for each song. While everything else had its own touch and identity, as a song, lyrically, they're all the same. Right now, I couldn't think of anything anyway that does not involve senti lyrics with their type of music.

You're so Dumb, It's Funny

This is just hilarious. Since Jep, Joco and I were talking about it earlier, I decided to find it in You Tube and got a hit. Talino talaga tsong.

So, let's end here for now. I was laughing so hard I lost my train of thought.

Clutter, Removing. Refresh

2007-12-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

New look. New color. No bullshit.

No more senseless crap (well, maybe a little). I have decided to make this my site of reviews about anything and everything under the sun. Be it a movie, song, or person, if I feel like writing something about it, it will be posted here.

The author would like to express his views about anything, but he would also like to make an impact to the general public. Ang labo nun. Anyway, as much as the site is composed of the author's perspective, he will try to connect it to everyday life, to the world. Incorporation.

As much as the author would not like to write senseless things, he probably will pollute this location with it. Law school is law school, no matter how the author wishes to put it.

As long as you, the reader, enjoys a good read, the author is pleased. Be sure to drop a line, or comment. Either way, make him feel appreciated (Okay, just joking). But do feel free to do so.

I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry

2007-09-28T01:56:00.000+08:00

Panalo!

I am really a big fan of Adam Sandler movies.

He's one lucky bastard... Jessica Biel... crap.

And the real kicker? Ving Rhames. The best. :")

It Ends Tonight by All American Rejects

2007-09-25T01:24:00.000+08:00

Misery Business

2007-09-24T00:47:00.001+08:00

Nice.

2007-09-22T02:52:00.000+08:00

Sarap uminom. Two straight nights with different friends. Happy happy.

Naturally, not that happy, but gotta make the most out of what you have.

Even if it's shit. :")

Eew.

Happy Birthday Sansan!

2007-09-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

A dear friend who's probably pissed at me. Ewan ko kung bakit. Labo niya eh. :"P

A dear friend pa rin!

happy birthday! I know you will have a good one.

Sheep Amidst the Wolves

2007-09-13T01:39:00.001+08:00

It is a weird feeling. The feeling that you can conquer everything you put your mind to, yet the irony is that you are unable to succeed in the thing you want the most. It is not because you do not have what it takes. It simply is not meant to be.

On a more personal note, how can one be a choice if every fibre in your body is against such a choice. In essence, you feel this certain link, or connection as you may say, and yet you know the best thing is to eradicate such a connection. To remove it from your consciousness, to choose another thing, or person. How can it be a choice if your free will cannot do anything to save you?

Heart skips a beat, breathless, tingling sensation. You hate it. But it is there, and you cannot do anything about it. No past, no future, just the sight of this thing or person stirs such emotion, such passion. Where your only recourse is to pound your fists against a wall, or let alcohol consume you. At the end of the day, it still remains. The thing that keeps you awake is for you to recognize that every passing moment, will have no bearing in the future, for this particular thing or person.

In everything you do, they are the first to pop up in your head. As much as you want to care for them, or know how they are, you are unable to do so, for the sake of saving what is left of your dignity. It would appear as if you do not care anymore, that you have moved on, but in the end, they still know that as much as you try to deny it, the stronger it shows.

You would want to be the hero to save them. But you already know that it will never happen. The serenity in the middle of the chaotic situation will never materialize without this thing or person. Everyday is a battle, and you know that you only have yourself to rely on, to lick your wounds. Strife within oneself, an ongoing battle from your waking moment to slumber. A battle to remind you that you will never get the rest you want, because that home you have been searching for is with that thing or person, which will never connect with you. You only hope to find a great alternative, but even with that, contentment is lost.

The memories you hold dear will only remain. Pushing these away will do you no good. Every moment mattered for you, yet it pains to see you that it means nothing for the other. You have let go of a future that could have been, and you wish for the best. Perhaps someday, fate will still link you together, but you know it probably will not, and all you can do is watch them fade slowly on the winding road towards a future without you in it. They turn right, but you must turn left.

You do not know what you truly feel, for it has never matured. You are in limbo. In an abyss of comfort and of chaos. Its character an ongoing paradox. Its solution will never arrive for it has fled towards the future that is never yours. The answer to your problems is the problem itself. There is a start, but never a finish.

Fine, granted acceptance had already sunk in. Still, everything involving them is torture. A constant reminder that you are unable to be on par with the thing or person that mattered to you the most. You only desire for another chance, a chance that will never arrive. That chance perhaps lie with another. A person with a unicorn different from yours.

Unconditional love? You will never know.

I have been wondering as of late about death. I am not exactly fearing it, for death is death. You would not know it anyway. My only concern is that what lies beyond. I would like to meet legends, my grandmother, my mother, and my friends. I wish the fun would continue in the afterlife. I hope it is similar to the movie "What Dreams May Come" (I think that's the movie).

Damn. I love that movie. Enough talk. No more talking. Back to silence.

My Daemon

2007-09-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

Got this from Kleechie and Thea

6131

2007-02-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

Today was a good experience. And I have learned a couple of things that make me weird.

Time was of the essence, so I ventured out in ATC to check out how much the shops there were buying second-hand sets of Nokia N70. It was roughly the same amount that my blockmate had told me the other day, so it was good. So then I asked, and they were ready to bargain actually, that's nice. Problem was, my phone was sim-locked to Smart, so that put down the price a bit, not to mention my phone value depreciated (yet again).

My phone was in great condition, and I had the box and everything with it, so they were not really complaining about that aspect. I traded it in for a Nokia 6131, and whoo boy when I began fiddling with the said gadget I forgot all about that N70. Neat thing it is, and it has Sudoku. Haha I was laughing when I discovered that.

I have this thing with purchasing things. Replacing it makes me feel weird. Let's say this celfone messes up, I'd rather have it fixed than replaced. Sentimental value perhaps. Well that's just that for that (labo).

Now all I have got to do is look for a 1GB memory card for it. 2gb is a little too pricey.

Well, I hope I survive this sem. Hahaha!

Nostalgia 1

2007-02-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

A while ago I was reading my old entries, and they were interesting reads. I always end up asking myself, "How the hell did I come up with that," or something related to that question. Not only was I talkative in person, I was also talkative in writing.

What I liked about those entries though is that there is vagueness, yet people can still relate to them because they are general matters. Like in a case, all are doctrines, facts are not really of importance. It maintains a certain shade of privacy, yet I am able to air out my thoughts for that particular day. I just have this feeling that I was a better writer back then than I am now. Not that I think I am a good writer, it is just because I write less, and I have become unfamiliar with expression in form of writing.

A lot has happened that left me cold, expressionless, and guarded. It also invoked practicality and austerity. So here I am, a better person, with less things to say in a moment where I should be more vocal. Actions speak louder than words. I guess I speak with confidence, but what really imposes action is my silence. Ooookay. Hahaha!

To hell with that. Life is weird. It has been giving me lemons ever since. And I am sick and tired of lemonade, or selling it, or what have you. I want my cake, and eat it too. Unfortunately, other people have been trying to eat my cake or have been eating my cake. And that last statement really sounds bad.

*Right person, wrong time; or wrong person, right time?*

Talk about being Fickle

2007-02-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

Well I have decided to post in this blog again. Hehehe

A lot has happened since my last post here, and I do not know where to start, or if I want to.

I have logged on here with the intention of actually writing something long, but now that I am here, no words would come to mind to help me out.

I realized that I know what it's like to be down there, and to be up there, and when I see people that do not deserve to be down there, I try my best to keep them afloat. I hate it, I hate hate hate it when I am unable to. Whether it is their stupidy, or whatnot, it affects me. Konting tiis lang siguro.

Last weekend was me going to Katipunan area. It was nostalgic. I missed it. Those were the good old days. I miss it.

Umm... Surbey

2006-07-30T13:05:00.000+08:00

Get your mp3 player & put it on shuffle mode. Press play & listen to the first 25 songs. Use a line from each song to answer the following questions. NO CHEATING – use song #1 to answer question #1, & so on. Try to keep the answers at least somewhat truthful.Ü

1. What is your life like right now?
"Everything's still without you near..."
Neon- Sponge Cola

2. What is your biggest fear?
"They say you're never ever gonna be true"
Baby It's You- The Beatles

3. What is one thing that would make you happy?
"I'm ready to bleed for you"
Dissect- Urban Dub

4. What is your biggest secret?
"I'll be forever thankful baby, you're the one who held me up"
Because of You- Celine Dion

5. Who are you in love with?
"In places no one will find, all your feelings so deep inside... was then that I realized that forever was in your eyes, the moment I saw you cry."
Cry- Mandy Moore

6. What will your future be like?
"Stranger."
They Came In- Butthole Surfers (I couldn't understand, lots of synth stuff)

7. What is your family like?
"You know you've got me thinkin'"
Make You Mine- Nina

8. What is something that makes you feel sad?
"If you don't have a razorblade then use your fucking fingertips."
How To Roll A Blunt- Redman

9. What was your childhood like?
"The journey's so long"
Destiny- Zero 7

10. What is school like?
"Stumbling reasons that are far and few. I let them all come down and made a song for you"
Pretty Baby- Vanessa Carlton

11. How is your love life?
"Things aren't always what they seem"
Just Another Girl- Monica

12. What is something that excites you?
"The girl's that driving me mad is going away"
Ticket To Ride- The Beatles

13. What is something you love?
"There's no one that gets me like you do"
Only One- Yellow Card

14. What is something you hate?
"Some friends just died and I couldn't cry."
It Ain't Easy- 2Pac

15. What is something you find attractive in the opposite sex?
"Elevation! Whoaaaa oooh"
Elevation- U2

16. What is your best memory?
"When I am protected with fire"
Sleep Now in the Fire- Rage Against The Machine

17. What is something that can make you laugh?
I guess big tackles in NFL. Hehe
College Fight Songs- NFL Theme

18. What is something you’re guilty of?
"First Love"
First Love- Utada Hikaru (Piano)

19. What’s the most fun you’ve ever had?
"You needed someone to show you the way... so I took your hand and I tried to take you away"
All You Wanted- Michelle Branch

20. What’s something you want to do before you die?
"Nothing lasts forever, and we know how to change"
November Rain- Guns N' Roses

21. Something you want to say to your best friend:
"That thing, that thing that thiiiiiing."
Doo Wop (That Thing)- Lauryn Hill

22. Something you want to say to your (crush) love:
"This is the way how I say I need you, this is the way that I'm learning to breathe"
Learning to Breathe- Switchfoot

23. Something you want to say to someone you hate:
"Welcome to the real the world."
No Such Thing- John Mayer

24. Something you want to say to someone you admire:
"Are you gonna go my way?!"
Are You Gonna Go My Way- Lenny Kravitz

25. Some last words you would like to give:
"Sippin' bub!"
Country Grammar- Nelly

technology

2006-07-28T19:48:00.000+08:00

The future is now!

In the past, dial up connections was the "in" thing. When cable internet came, dial up sucked... then you had DSL, which was incorporated in the phone line so it is like you are hitting two birds with one stone! Now... you have WiFi- Wireless Fidelity I think is the whole name. It has no cords... it's like a mobile phone of sorts... laptops have it... and it rocks.

This means that I am now currently in school, in my classroom, listening to Statutory Construction, and typing. WiFi of ADMU Law, its fee included in our tuition.

Dapat lang sulitin! Mga lintek. Wahahaha

today was different.

2006-07-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

it had peace. it had serenity. it had you.

:")

Funny

2006-07-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

My last post: 10.31.2005.

A lot, and I mean a lot has happened since then. From sheer joy to tragedy, all in one fell swoop. It has been a painful six-month journey but I am still alive. The pain was sometimes unbearable, but I always find the will to go on. Questions as to why things happened the way it did kept me going. It wasn't because I was bitter nor seeking revenge, I just knew deep in my heart that God was telling me to.

When you thought you have found the one thing that may keep you truly happy, it shows its true color and blinds you silly.

Now I tend to keep things to myself, which was not usually the case. I finally learned to be silent and still... accepting what is there to accept, and knowing also when to fight for your cause. Both hurt anyway, depending on the situation. I refuse to go into detail. I have somehow buried this certain magical thing.

But like buried relatives and buried pasts, both leave a tombstone for you to remember, and to see that this particular person, or circumstance did indeed make an impact in your life. As I gaze on the tombstone of my wonderful past, I feel the sensation I get when I look at pictures of people who have passed away.

Something is missing. And I know that I cannot replace it, and this thing won't come back. I have a hard time swallowing it. At least I have learned a lot from it... a whole lot that I wouldn't take it back if I was given the opportunity.

I checked out this old blog because of my friend. We were swapping blogsites. Oddly, when I saw this one, I felt like I was home, which leads me into writing this stinking excuse for an entry. I felt the warmth. Call me crazy, perhaps it's just the weather, but I felt the old me being revived. Maybe it is time to just forget the pain and take everything that was nice.

All is settled and forgiven, naturally things will never be the same again, but there are new pages to write on, and more albums to fill. Like with everyone else, I am able to discover new things. Equal opportunity for everyone.

I got this from my friend Rina. Magandang excerpt.

"...They talk, and they talk, and they talk, and little by little, they piece together the puzzles of their lives. And they find out they got along well with each other and they find out that things seemed to work out well and that they really liked each other a lot. And that was that. No frills, no fireworks, no deep philosophical questionings, no hair-pulling and eyebrow-burning discernment. There were just the simple, level-headed dcision making of two very sensible down to earth people, who knew they were not perfect, and who just knew how to love the other. There was nothing frenetic and deliriously fantastic. It was just a quiet coming to fullness of two people who knew what they wanted, who knew they were not in fairlyland, and who were willing to settle down with each other, not because they were absolutely certain, and not because there was some kind of ecstatic high of romance, and certainly not because there was no one else out there. But rather, there was just this calm and serene deep-down confidence that this is it, and that they can commit to each other for the rest of their lives."
- an excerpt from 'Not for Perfect People' by Jose Cecilio J. Magadia, SJ

This was the past. Now, I feel that a new chapter is about to unfold. You can never experience the same thing twice. Either one is better or whatever. My friend will always have that part, and for this new person who may be knocking at my doorstep as I am to hers, we will just have to see.

Right now, I am walking away from the tombstone, after hours and hours of staring at it.

Time Flows

2005-10-31T14:07:00.000+08:00

Like water. It sounds like a joke but it isn't. Unfortunately time cannot be frozen like water. I wish I could freeze time. There are moments that need freezing.

I guess that's why we live right? We live for ourselves, to see the next chapter, to look forward to a brighter tomorrow or in other words, to live for another moment. Not to worry I suppose...

When I am happy, I lose the will to write. That sucks.

A Galera Pic

2005-01-23T19:33:00.000+08:00

I miss galera kebab.

Moving? No? Yes? Hahaha!

2005-01-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

Tsunami

2004-12-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

My prayers go out to them...

Please guys do pray for them or keep them to your thoughts.

It's a comforting and guilty thought that thanks to Indonesia, we weren't washed away by it. So we're lucky and some other people paid for it. Let's just count our blessings and be the best we can be ;")

Sounds like an advertisement now...

As of this time: 76, 700. It will probably reach 100,000 in a few hours... :"(

Dagdag

2004-12-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

So that my blog looks spooky again wehehehe :")

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Yo Mama jokes courtesy of my friend Nico :"D

YO MAMA'S SO DUMB, SHE GOT HIT BY A PARKED CAR.

YO MAMA'S SO DUMB, WHEN SHE TOOK THE BUS HOME... SHE PARKED IT IN THE GARAGE.

YO MAMA'S SO DUMB, WHEN SHE TRIED TO FREE WILLY... SHE TOOK HIM OUTTA HIS TANK AND SAID: "RUN WILLY! RUN!!"

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, AFTER SEX, I ROLLED OVER TWICE... AND I WAS STILL ON THE BITCH!

YO MAMA'S SO UGLY, WHEN SHE WAS BORN... THE DOCTOR SLAPPED HER PARENTS.

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, WHEN SHE SITS AROUND THE HOUSE... SHE SITS !!!AROUND!!! THE HOUSE!

YO MAMA'S ASS IS SO BIG, GOD SAID "MOVE OVER LADY!! I CAN'T SEE THE EARTH!!

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, SHE FELL ON THE GRAND CANYON AND GOT STUCK.

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, SHE WENT OUT WEARING A YELLOW RAINCOAT AND SOMEONE YELLED "TAXI!!!"

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, I WENT AROUND HER ONCE... AND GOT LOST!

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, SHE FELL IN LOVE... AND BROKE IT.

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, SHE HAD TO GO TO SEAWORLD TO GET BAPTIZED.

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, THE HIGHWAY PATROL MADE HER WEAR "CAUTION! WIDE TURN"

YO MAMA'S SO FAT, WHEN YOU GET ON TOP OF HER... YOUR EARS POP!

YO MAMA'S SO DUMB, SHE TRIPPED OVER A CORDLESS PHONE.

Misc.

2004-12-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

I sold my Samsung e600 already. I am happy I sold it fast. :"D

My music library is about to reach 1000. Hay nako. Buti naman noh... hehehe and many songs to come! Excited! :") Since we are in the topic, I bought Sennheiser PMX 60 headphones (neckworn) for better sound quality and convenience. No more ear buds falling off your shoulder and such!

Had lunch at Recipe and dinner at Bubba Gump last night at Greenbelt. It was fun :") Drew, Nico and myself watched "Sigaw" and it was good! Obvious influence from the Japanese horror flicks, but it had a lousy scene. Drew said it best with the characters in the movie "UTAK PULBURON!!!!!!!!"

Burned Windstruck already so Nico thanks, Chinky you'll get your copy soon ;")

I am starting to become responsible again... oh no... that is not good... hahaha! My friend and I are trying to form a flag football team so anybody interested (male AND female), contact me ;")

Oh and the new pic on the upper left? I made that. It's a good start. ;")

Thanks to the people who have greeted me, thanks for the moments ;")

Prestige.

2004-12-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah. Finally. Got it cheap too. Basta this thing... is... well... special.

I had a plain Christmas. When I say plain it means it's fun and all that, nothing surprising though hehehe :"D

My presents all came in advance, so I guess when Christmas came there wasn't really any hype hahaha

Hope you guys enjoyed your Xmas... I sure did enjoy mine... in a different way. ;")

Salary Cap

2004-12-21T16:32:00.000+08:00

Well I have been playing Madden for the last couple of days so all that's in my head right now are statistics and money money money! hahahah I wish though that those were real money.

Now the problem is I have a team that's so damn good, and some of their contracts are going to expire. I am at the offseason, my second one and this is the time were players retire, get signed, traded also or released. This is the time for draft picks also. Lots of money involved. I haven't even mentioned the coaches you have to sign (4 of them!) and the fitness center that will take care of your players and stadium upgrades and such (lovely lovely upgrades) that will make you go crazy... in a good way. Anyway the problem is the salary cap.

The reason for it is for parity. Wow. It's a great reason and I actually like it. So this means that I will have to let go of those players whom I can't afford (anyway I can't afford them all) and get younger ones or those who are lame compared to them. They're cheap so there. Good thing with me is I am getting the hang of getting good draft picks because for this season my rookie receiver won rookie of the year. Also I am the one playing and the QB is the only best player I will keep. Hahaha :"D

With that said, it is inevitable to see them go. You have to stick with a few and that's it. It prevents dynasties, and prevents the predictability of the league. Oh, but then you can argue that.

What about the meltdown that the Yankees did last season? Man that was a bitch. I am a Yankees fan, and for them to lose like that to the Red Sox really is insulting. Anyway unlike the NFL, MLB doesn't have a salary cap. This pretty much means that if your baseball club is rich, then it is rich. Which practically means that you can spend whatever the hell you want on everybody as long as you have the money. Look at the Yankees. :"D

They have a payroll up to $160 million, the most in the league, and well aren't afraid to spend more. Man New York is this rich it sickens me. I wish I had that much money. Like in the game I am playing. Now since my team is the bomb and such we profit tons of money... but then you see the okay clubs such as the New York Giants and Jets... and heck in my game they didn't even see the playoff light and their profit is more than the others! In the end I had more, but say I didn't make it to the Super Bowl... they'd be richer. The magic of salary cap. All they could do with that extra money is spend it on stadium upgrades or relocate themselves or buy a build a new stadium. :"P

As for me I can only do the same.

What I really don't like are signing bonuses because it handicaps a team if the player is traded or whatever. It's all about the money... crap. Hehehe

You get what I am saying right? :"P

*We live life like it's the last day of school!*

Diary

2004-11-08T18:56:00.000+08:00

Well somebody isn't paying up. Somebody owes me 210 bucks. Apparently she just ran away never looking back. I mean if *I* were her, I would hunt myself down and pay up. Some people are just like that I suppose. I mean I don't see her in YM, nor she ever contacts me to notify me to meet and pay her dues... no. Some people are raised this way. Bad. She ain't Chinese so I guess that's normal? Haha no offense to the Chinese :")

Great Madden Day today. I hope I get to organize my ish early.

I put some nice plants in my aquarium...

I don't have anything to say anymore... I think.

*I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me*

Inconsiderate "entities"

2004-07-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

Mga leche!

Sa susunod naman sana, magkaroon naman kayo ng kaunting konsiderasyon sa mga "side mirrors" na natatamaan sa inyong paglalakad patungo kung saanman. Lintek.

It's difficult to adjust the side mirror of my car. To set up that perfect position that I can see the cars from my left and right. Sorry ha, mine's not all powered kasi eh... the shits...

I mean HELLO. Pota. Mga tangang mga tao yan, "whoops I hit that mirror, baaah." Taena. Just because your cars are Volvos and Beemers that doesn't give you the right to hit anybodys' side mirror (okay that was just an assumption).

Funny thing is, people of ALL AGES happen to be ignorant enough to just leave that mirror. I can even imagine that they were even irritated with the mirror because it hit them. LAGYAN KO KAYA NG PATULIS NA MGA BAGAY ANG MGA SALAMIN KO?! TIGNAN NATIN!!!

The car is there. My Pajerito is there, not moving, stationary. You guys, people, MOVING. Like what most people who MOVE do, they AVOID stationary objects. Just like in an obstacle course.

Be at least KIND ENOUGH to put it back in its position, or where you think it was before you hit it. People would appreciate that. They will even think that the mirrors only got nudged a bit and not bent out of proportion! Ala naman ganon katanga yung drayber na yung mga taong naglalakad ang kanyang sinasalamin hindi ba? Kung mayroon man, hindi sila marami. Kaya huwag na kayong mamilosopo!

Bottom line: be considerate. Some people might be borderline suicidal and just a little nudge might do it. Something like bumping that side mirror may be a little too farfetched but hey... YOU'LL NEVER KNOW RIGHT? Oh you think that since you don't know it won't hurt you? HA. It shows your true colors anyway if you think that's the case. Sure go on with your life... we'll see.

(Okay that wasn't targeted to anybody. I didn't see the culprit anyway. If I saw the culprit then I'd be happy to bash his head on that particular side mirror. :"P)

Just a rant... bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan huwag magagalit.

Benta... grabe

2004-07-15T20:30:00.000+08:00

Ano ang ginagamit ng pig sa kanyang pagkain?
--> Spoon and Pork

Ano ang tawag sa pig na walang feet?
--> Groundpork

tawa naman diyan!!! :"P

This day wasn't that good...

But then my blockmate did this unexpectedly sweet thing for me today. Well it wasn't intentional or anything.

I was cramming for our Theology long test, and so I was reviewing the readings. I could see that she wanted to ask what I was reading, and she did anyway

"So what are reading?"
"Theo."
"Quiz?"
"No, long test. I crammed on our paper due today so I wasn't able to study well..."
"Ah... I made notes about the those readings, I can lend them to you" (Reaches for the notes)
"Whoa! Thanks! Thanks a lot!"

Awfully nice of her... :")

"What is up...

2004-07-06T19:14:00.000+08:00

with these High School kids comin' straight into the league and not gettin' their education... Don't worry, I will take them to school every night..."

Yup... wise words from TMAC, or Tracy McGrady. Arguably one of the best in the NBA. Great Adidas ad.

Anyway today, my opponents wished that they just took the leap into the big leagues and not optiong for college... get my drift?

We were all college peeps, they were friends of my neighbor. They were playing basketball already and I was just waiting for them to finish. And then they put me in... and I shot the lights out.

From just about anywhere. From the corner. Weakside. Strongside. Center.

I shot the lights out. Like, from anywhere. Center. Corner. Strongside. Weakside. Floater. Double-pump. Putback. Faked two defenders that went airborne, shot the ball anyway. *swish* The best player trash talking because he swished in a three. Right after that I shot from the same spot. Same result. *Silence* Picked up my dribble, had to weave myself between two defenders and shot the ball. I felt someone tap my elbow. Swish anyway. Baseline drive overloaded with defenders. Did my floater. *Gee, did that go in?* Shot two out of three game winning shots. Drained it without hesitation. It didn't hit the rim. Dead center.

Passed with confidence. A lame player making consecutive shots giving me assists for my stat. Another pair of assists when my other skilled teammate shot from beyond the arc twice. Another pass to the baseline. Another assist.

The last shot of the last game was mine. It was a fallaway jumper, but then I was falling to my left to the out of bounds. And well...

They had no answer for me. And I sealed in, and frustrated their best defender that they set up picks in order for him to score. Well their picks were good, but hey, I had faith in my teammates... they did a great job.

Yeah I was tired. I didn't think it showed though... I was just throwing the ball up and then... oh well

Oops now I am trash-talking...

Speeding Lives

2004-06-30T19:56:00.000+08:00

SPEEDING LIVES
Ryan C. S. Teehankee
06.20.04

06.15.04
Wow, an angel. I could not believe my eyes. This girl, this woman who has entered the creaking doors of the air-conditioned classroom is my classmate. Her brain and beauty has made her one the popular girls around. We could say the epitomy of your fantasies and dreams of "chinita" women. Ironic, we are already in college and it feels like a high school thing! How sad... She has made me a poet once more. Poetry was never happy because only sorrow can have me paint words beautifully.

06.17.04
And once again she’s my classmate, but this time it is different. She transferred seats! I was so happy because this time around our distance apart has been cut to half. It made my heart race and my fantasies vivid and colorful. The infatuation levels are off the charts! My heart aches with content as I await her smile.

06.22.04
Man, this is making me so depressed. To be so close yet so distant... I better stop this. Nothing is going to flourish from this. There is simply no future. It is just an infatuation and raging hormones that I should just ignore. I suppose it will wear out anyway after a couple of weeks. I probably only got excited with the fact that this "Dream Girl" I keep on seeing became my classmate and it gave me false hope. Moving on is a good thing. That which does not kill me makes me stronger.

06.25.04
...
I was crossing the main road outside our school, and then to my surprise, she was walking alongside with me! Of course we weren’t really friends, but we smiled at each other as if she acknowledged that I was a friend. I was so happy... and then.

CRASH.

Next thing I knew she was on the road, her face still bright and angelic, yet unconscious. She was bleeding like hell, and nobody really tried to help her.

Nobody.

People ran away, and oddly bystanders were... non-existent. Where were the onlookers when you needed them? The panicked driver sped away but not to worry because I got his plate number so he better be ready for pain. Rule of thumb was to not move the body right? But then I felt something inside of me, saying that I have to move her, to carry her, to bring her to the hospital. Something or someone compelled me to lift her from the ground and to bring her somewhere safe and warm. Good thing she was still alive when I was able to bring her to the nearest hospital.

"And you are her brother? Husband?" The nurse asked. All that came out from my mouth was, "Classmate."

They said I made the right decision. She was bleeding heavily after the impact, hemorrhage in the head or something... everything was so blurry but the fact that she, the being I consider untouchable and unreachable, is now in a room next to mine, being operated on or whatever.

Her parents thanked me. They were so grateful for the risk I took when I rushed her to a hospital. We had dinner altogether which was fun and very fulfilling, if the circumstances were only different. It was like instant introduction of a boyfriend to the family. A "meet the parents" thing that fortunately was fun and informative. They fell in love with me, and I fell in love with them that quick. Once again I just hope the circumstances were different.

They said that if I wanted something, I should ask them without any apprehension. And that I can visit her any time.

06.26.04
I was informed that she is still in critical condition. Even if my gamble paid off, the only thing I did was delay the inevitable. She had lost a lot of blood and chances are still slim that she would live through the weekend.

I thought that I should visit her before I do my studies. Her mother was there, right beside her. I figured that this was the time to tell her what I thought about her and so on. I had to take advantage even for just five minutes. I asked her if I could talk to her daughter alone, and she granted my wish. So there, I was there, it was 3:00 p.m.

So there I saw where her mother sat, and then I held her hand. It was magic and tragedy all at the same time. Such a painful paradox...

Her face was still the same, like nothing had happened to her the other day. She only looked as if she were sleeping the day off. But then shortly thereafter suddenly you will hear beeps and air going through some mechanisms as if you were in a factory. All types of medicines being taken intravenously and that life thing, I think it is called the electroencephalogram.

I was there, her mother was just seated somewhere near the door of the room, watching TV. It was then I started my piece.

I’ll be honest and straightforward since you won’t be hearing this anyway, I think. I like you. Yeah, like every male entity in this land who has the same taste as mine. Most people only see you as a trophy girl though… take my word for it because I know. But then I see something in you that I don’t see in most people. There is this something that I cannot discern. I will try but you will have to bear with me on this one… but what can you do, you’re just there, and I am here, and you will have to listen to every word I have to say. I am not saying I am the greatest person, or the perfect guy for you, but then I am so glad that I have this opportunity to tell you how I feel for you and what I think of you. I just hope that the circumstances were ways different! This wasn’t exactly what I had in mind you know. But then anyway I hope that you get better, and I hope that we would also get to know each other more. I would love to be your friend if not anything else, because you are indeed a genuine person. How do I know this? It is because of your smile. Never did I see a smile so pure, so genuine and honest. Please live, for your family, for your friends! I am pretty content being your savior here, or so they say, and with this pouring of my feelings to you, I feel as if I have been so blessed already. I should have prepared for this! I would love to cross the street with you again if you know what I mean… I am not expecting anything else, I think holding your hand is already harassment! I am kidding! Anyway you take care, and go do your thing.

Yeah they said she was in a coma so I thought this would be the perfect time to actually say what I want to say. So I did right? Yes and something shocking really happened…

She held back...

It was a gesture of acceptance, of "I hear you." It was like she heard everything I was saying. Nothing else but her hand moving, and I was so happy that she was able to listen to me. I felt that she was on her way to a speedy recovery because she heard me.

And then that life thing, it flat lined.

She flat lined.

She was gone.

On that very instant everything was a blur once more.

What if I had asked her to live for me...?

a sad story for one married couple...

2004-06-29T19:25:00.000+08:00

My mother and I had our usual talk earlier and she relayed to me a sad story.

She has an officemate who died of cancer last night.

Well you could say, "Yes, so what's the big deal?" Well, it is the story behind it (no shit).

Anyway, she was 34. She is married and has two kids. Two weeks ago, yeah two weeks ago she complained of stomach aches so they went to a doctor who thought it was no biggie and said she should just take Ponstan. So she did as the doc said. Fortunately the pain went away for three days and then it came back with a vengeance.

She self-medicated herself with Ponstan, and this time it didn't work. So this time around they went back to have a recommendation from a doctor for lab testing. They had their lab tests done at Makati Med, and then the specialist there told them that she should be confined for one day, due to the fuzzy results of the said lab test. So they did, and by the end of the day the doc said to the husband that if they want a second opinion they should get it. The concerned husband was now shocked, not knowing what her case is. And then the doctor dropped the bomb, "I think she has cancer of the stomach"

They checked in a different hospital. And another specialist confirmed the case. She has cancer, and it was already bad. The doctor said she only has 3-4 months, and probably that will only be because of chemo. So the husband was decided to take the chemotherapy so that she would live a little longer; and then another bomb, "But sir, by doing so the fetus won't make it."

Apparently she was two months pregnant. Talk about double whammy.

One week has past, and she has started to deteriorate FAST. Within the span of last week, she turned blind, and numb. She probably had the idea of the cancer, but they never told her. It was fast, like lightning.

I can't picture the husband's state right now. No goodbyes, no nothing, and then left with two kids, one 7, one 3. The 3 year-old kept on asking about the mom...

That's the sad day for today.
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On a more happy note, God was on my side today... kilig day. All I can say is that through chance, He has made me look like a gentleman to the girl I like, and generous also. And some, other stuff... :"D

Well that's it, signing off

*Try swimming inside of my head and I will see if you can come out empty-handed*

it's gone. finally.

2004-06-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

The itch is gone. I am here, relaxed and warm. Nothing seems to be bothering me anymore.

Focus is starting gain momentum inside my messed up head. The force is strong with this one once more. I am calm, open-minded and ambitious (I think). Yeah but now I am spent. Perhaps tomorrow I will figure out what is the best thing to do. My vacation days are now numbered. This coming week is the last week that I will be able to do nothing. This will be the last week that I will be a useless bum. This will be the last week on where I will be passive and cautious. After this week, it is time to play like you have nothing to lose. After this week it is time to pace yourself, balancing your extra-curricular activities with your studies. After this week, I will be with familiar people, and things will be perfectly alright. After this week... I am once again a college student.

No, I am not just a trainee in flag football, or a bum drummer. I will be a flag football player, a musician and a good student. I should be. Why shouldn't I make myself like this? Of course if my grades get screwed up, then screw flag and my music hahaha :")

If the summer blues continue to haunt me it will be alright. I wouldn't mind. In fact I would embrace it... why not? Lots of nice memories this summer... I shall remember them fondly.

It is as if the rain has washed away the distractions and whatever-there-is-to-wash-away.

Sorrow stirs within myself. Just asking the question "Why?" and not to mention how life can be so easy and difficult at the same time. Talk about paradox.

Life is a puzzle you will need to fix up. You start perfect, all pieces together and then you grow, and you mess up your own puzzle... and other people also contributes to that... and then you will end up taking the blame. And lastly, you will on this course of fixing that little perfect image you began with.

Labo.

white oleander + sleep = don't ask.

2004-05-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

Well these past days were not so happy, but nah... I can manage... just a little nudge... I am okay. I don't know. Am confused in a way. Anyway boxing was really fun. I enjoyed the workout! :"D

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I swear to God... shit.

That movie is depressing. Yes I think it was meant to open the eyes of the public... heck when I watched it in the moviehouse (I don't know why we even wacthed it) it was a sad, sad SAD story.

Anyway for you people who haven't watched the movie, hurrah for you, here's a nice summary:

So there is this artist mom and her artist daughter. The mom is a single-parent, obviously, since her guy at the time left her when Astrid, the daughter was born. Moving on, they develop this close relationship, unfortunately the "artistic" tendencies or rather the mother's strong sense of self (basically being a feminist) brought an end to this nice relationship.

It so happened when she dated this guy from I-don't-care-land. They were having so much fun and all, that the mom was starting to become soft and depend on his "love". So as the mom was revealing her soft side, by visiting him at his house (which sprouted from the mom's jealousy anyway) and then screwing the daylights out of him- or maybe.. screwing the daylights IN him... uhh.. no pun intended because it was meant in an artistic way.. if you know what I mean. Anyway, the guy after screwing the daylight inside of her, also put the living daylights OUT of her by saying that she has to leave because he has a date which in result infuriated her (ya don't need to be a rocket-scientist to figure that one out). Bottom line, he used her.

Of course being the proud, bitchy mom that she is she couldn't take it. All of it. All the shame, deceit, and how she'd been so soft again only for nothing which strengthens all her feministic beliefs. Now the next thing she had to do was to get back at him, and put the living daylights OUT of the man. Being the artistic mom that she is, when I say the phrase, "put the living daylights OUT of the man" means different... or perhaps what I am trying to get you to think is that she is going to kill him. Literally. As in no plan. Just attack. Blitzkrieg. It didn't work unfortunately because... she got caught.

Oh... if you have noticed, I have never mentioned the daughter. Yeah, like the mom, I wasn't thinking of the daughter that time. Good thing for me though, is that I don't have that responsibility. Dumbass bitch.

What I am saying is, after she was caught, and then convicted, her daughter's life became screwed, figuratively although she got to screw some hot guy in the early parts of her journey but that's not the topic.

So okay. Fine. The mom is selfish. Yes. Depressing in a way... but there is still hope for little Astrid right? Of course there is! BUUUUT, the MOTHER, still controls her even if she's just in prison with a girl who only has a vocab of 27 words! Whoopee.

Yes the mother wouldn't stop.

Astrid finally landed in a plush house, complete with everything. The one who adopted her were a couple that couldn't have children. The husband was always away, and probably the girl needed the company. So little Astrid falls into the lap of the "celebrity" which was portrayed by Renee Zellweger. Oh yeah they were an instant hit. They were cheerful, they'd exercise in the morning, go to sports clubs, shopping, driving or riding in the BMW, yeah it was awesome. Astrid really wanted to be here, and so did the character of Renee. They were like sisters.

The mom started to get jealous and started to hint at Astrid that she would like to meet Renee. Astrid, knowing her mom, didn't want it to happen because she knows her mom will just brainwash Renee. Anyway Astrid's mom wrote letters to Renee even telling her not to tell Astrid. Renee now after being moved by whatever poetry the mom put in those letters wanted to meet her. Sad.

Renee met the mom, admiring her. The mom exploited Renee's lack of depth or probably perception. Not only that, she just made the paranoia of Renee into a reality.

Bah. I am so pissed. To make a long story short, the mom screwed up Renee's perspective, it got to her, and became her undoing. She committed suicide. And Astrid was right beside her sleeping.

It's not a blatant hit to the artists really. I consider myself as one... but God... her views are just... so unilateral and selfish actually that her daughter was the one who was paying for all of it. That was the sad part. Ironic still, she lost everything because of one stupid guy.

It's long. Sorry, but geez... I couldn't sleep straight after watching. I'd be waking up and the first word that I'd say is "Shit" or "Fuck". God...

let go..!

2004-05-20T19:03:00.000+08:00

Trying out this "thing" in Rockwell is fun (okay I am dumb enough not to know what it is exactly called... you know... where you are thrown up and down??). At first I thought that I was going to be in 5 mins of hell... but then it was only for like 2 minutes. Because, when I realized that I was reaching the height of where the second floor was, it became clear to me that this is sooo much fun!!! Labo...

I want to go out... hang out with people I don't really know that well, basically whoever! It'd be fun or something to ponder about.. I love reflecting anyway! So come one, come all!

My salsa salsa salsa... my salsa... where'd everybody go? hahahaha! :"D

*I want to let go... I have to but my hands won't let me...
Sure thing, I should just cut off my hands right..?
Unfortunately, this is a mind over matter situation...*

err... loser!!!

2004-05-20T02:00:00.000+08:00

Hahaha!!! *BeeeeeP* *Alert!* *Alert!* *Somebody is losing his mind!*

Growls. Howls.

Beep! Beep!

Elated. Evaded. Underrated. Addicted. Depressed. Engrossed. Elated.

Oh my God...dess! (Know that anime???)

Expect the unexpected. Never expect anything from anybody. Demand happiness. Release.

Yes, freak of nature. Abhor the labor. Mislead the eyes. Deceive the being. Uphold the abode.

Where on earth is that missing screw that's supposed to be stuck in my head???

*beepbeep* *zzzzz*

Sizzle. Been searching through the pages...

What signs, hints, pop up, it is starting to bore me... NOT.

Maybe everything's going to be alright when my head gets rattled in boxing.

the uninspired inspiration

2004-05-17T19:14:00.000+08:00

In all honesty inspirations come and go for me... err like they do with everybody.

Where am I getting at?

I have watched this episode of Boys-Be on where it has made itself a good example for this... post. Kanzaki, the main character helps his introvert co-worker (i forgot his name) to dress up nicely and to ask his long time crush out. Problem: the girl is just one of those elite uniques... Anyway that's of no real problem for real men right? Hehehe So as the episode goes on the co-worker guy suddenly tries to back out. Kanzaki of course, asked why, after all the preparation and advice he offered to him. The co-worker guy suddenly blurted out (oh I forgot to mention they are both artists) that if the answer of the girl is bad, or whatever result is bad, he won't be able to draw inspiration from the said girl anymore plus the sad part of he not able to draw her pretty face again. BOOHOO. :"D

Kanzaki's reply was a good-one... and pretty common-sensical (if there's such a word): "Well, you should at least try. If you succeed then you will be able to let that little inspiration grow into epic proportions... well, if you do not... There's always someone out there who can be your new inspiration, and you will be able to draw their faces..."

Of course those were not the exact wordings but hey cut me some freakin' slack ;") So the co-worker guy finally gets his balls into place and then proceeds to press the doorbell of the girl's house.

After that, he went back to the main character. He said it didn't work out.

Oh well... there is always a new face to draw, a new person to draw your inspiration from... the perks of having billions of people in this earth... trial and error seems to be the best solution to every problem... :"D

So what has this got to do with me you ask... well... nothing really. HA-HA :"P Of course this has something to with me... All I can say is that impossible is indeed nothing... perhaps the best word that relates to impossible is "inappropriate" or "unethical" hehehehe

My options are open, my thoughts are not closed to one perspective. Sometimes you would only wish that the people you encouter are as open as you are...

*Close that door, and you close yourself to the Gods*

Heyo

2004-05-13T00:52:00.000+08:00

Well well well... this is a new blog.

My former blog is and this will be the new one... thanks to Ego for introducing me here... hahaha

ry.